athena’s alt

its like fake fomo, all im missing out on is friend time

i do not like the feeling of being left out left out, like when it is specifically a group activity i rlly just Cannot join but all my friends are yknow? like the worst part about it is when it gets to that its litwerally no ones fault. i cant help im not interested and they cant help they are

everything testing my patience

i need to get medicated so bad

i genuinely hate like feeling such a useless and pathetic human being

wanting private accounts is a weak mindset just be evil publically

i anger myself at my lack of commitment to finishing what i start

the goals were doable i just literally suck as at living for myself and then i get sad when im not where i want to be in my life

really really frustrating. i feel like being in school locks me into being mediocre at everything i do, but sometimes i blame myself for that

i did the classic ‘give up on your resolutions less than 20 days in’ because i lack motivation ofr self improvement

odd feelings about having hooves. so odd.

#Hmmm

videos of people wearing hoof shoes fucks with the perception i have of my own gender hut im in uni so i dont got time for dat rn

thomas movie is crazy 🤯

do u guys Also watch thomas the tank engine with ur voice chats

i think this is up there for the most traction art of mine has ever gotten which is insane

i hate to be a numbers girl but it id insane thst i KNOW the halmy art i posted last night wouldve gotten max 20 likes on twitter

BUT ON BLUESKY??

im not posting this on main

i just genuinely know i am a presence that isnt cared for here

my family would personally be better off if i wasnt here and im fully aware of that. then instead of ignoring a cousin they think is gay they can hate gay people with no repercussions.

i cherish my friends and i am not suicidal in the slightest,

id be dissapointed in myself if i could bring myself to care about myself at all. i genuinely dont know whats wrong either me or why im like this

i just genuinely dont know how im alive. im 22 years old and feel like ive got nothing ahead of me. all the years other people spend parcticing things when theyre young i spent doing absolutely nothing. i have Nothing to show for 22 years on thisplanet

ill probably just stop in a week. honestly apart of the reason i say i just dont play games is because havingto learn any new game makes me so upset because i cant handle failure. i stopped indulging in a hobby just because i couldnt even do that correctly

as much as i smile and fumble through life i just. do nothing for myself. if anything i make everything worse for myself. and i genuinely never see myself getting the drive to change anything for myself anymore. im too fucking lazy and need 1 million pushes and different incentives and even then

i am a sad human being

i want to create so bad i just cant. im unable