sigh spent the last 15 or so hours vomiting everything I put in my body, especially water π I hate this I want to be normal and work...having to call off one of my 3 days really sucks even if I know I can't work and it's valid to call off. I need a hug
like I'm just a Boston terrier irl and on a spiritual level. I guess that's what being a therian would be right? Idk
been toying with the thought that I might be therian but I'm not sure if I identify with the term
found out 1996 blues clues is available on archive org so i've been watching it intermittently through the day to keep sane lol
sending big magical vibes π«Άππ
tattoo ideas:
- crayon heart (duh)
- low poly spyro dragon crystal
- low poly bowser
- love meter from ham ham heartbreak
- miltank
- mutant ixi / ixi transmogrification potion
- faux stickers
- more assorted boston terriers
i want a tattoo so bad but i want my first tattoo to be a boston terrier playing with a rainbow behind them...
gonna go to werk and then come home and do a draw hehe yay
feeling full of joy and whimsy this morning
colored pencil pokemon fanart of Mew with iridescent bubbles and colorful sparkles.
today i offer you a little mew π©·
#pokemon
maybe my fiancee would buy them for me........
they release tomorrow and i hope they don't immediately sell out π₯²
energy for the day
Me n' my puter against the world
#digitalartist #artistsofbluesky
been pretty depressed with the medic/aid shit. like. i'm never going to make any money for anything because i have to stay under a limit so i can afford to live. fucking asinine. i will never travel. i might never have a car. what the fuck is the point
4 shots of espresso this morning...
made a turkey and poblano pepper chili last night ππΆοΈ with some cheese and Fritos on top? sheeeeeeeee!
I have procreate and CSP but honestly it just feels so wrong. Yes I have a paper protector on, but like idk mentally it feels weird πππ like I just want my huion screen tablet and SAI2 for life
does anyone have any tips for making iPad drawing less eek and ahhh bcus I've had one since last October and I've drawn exactly nothing on it bcus it feels weird and scary
I haven't bought a BaB in over a year (bluey&bingo) so maybe... maybe I'll have a little treat...
GUYS... I need theym π₯Ί
one thing youll learn about me is i be staying in my lane, doing my damn thing
fiancee woke me up at 2 am with homemade apple cheesecake, sheeeeeeeeeeeeeesh...!
Post reads: People with ADHD have whatβs called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD). Itβs an extreme emotional response to perceived criticism or rejection. Your brain canβt regulate the emotional pain, so a small comment feels like a devastating attack. A minor correction feels like total failure. Someoneβs tone feels like hatred. Itβs not oversensitivity. Itβs not being dramatic. Your brain literally canβt modulate the intensity of that emotional response. Itβs neurological, not a character flaw.
Post reads: If you love someone with ADHD, understand that tone is a weapon you didn't know you were carrying. A short text or a sigh of frustration isn't just a moment of stress to them, it's a signal of impending exile. Your consistency and reassurance aren't coddling; they are the bridge that helps them cross the gap of their own neurological insecurity.
These were really good posts explaining Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria I had to pull over
On a personal level, this is one of my hardest things to deal with. Thankfully its not constant, and I've learned outward reactive regulation, but inside its still this, and sometimes the sad slips out >> 1/2
unfortunately a med i'm on makes me sick like... 40% of the time. i have to wait til i get my insurance back before i talk to my doctor or quit it so im just kind of dealing with vomiting and nausea until then D:
it was three times before 10 am, this time
another day another game of when will I vomit
got off work and came home to a platter of homemade chocolate covered strawberries my fiancee made for me... i'm so gay
might need to make a character...
