The people who peaked in high school are running the place and still think being a bully or a pick me is cool. Big talkers with no substance acting like children trying to reclaim the glory they once felt.
It’s all been a puppet show. The rich and elite shining light on the back of the cave, convincing us the shadows were real.
Never did they believe the whole of the world would climb out of that cave at the same time, finally seeing the reality and depth of their deception.
Let them all burn.
Ginger cat named Charlotte peering through a chair back.
I am currently in my first week of my second semester of grad school and taking my first art history class at this level - I have never felt more stupid or out of my depth. It’s keeping me up at night and I’ve actually been on the verge of quitting.
I need cats to get me through.
#MFA
The Cautious Traveller's Guide to the Wastelands, Sarah Brooks. Just one book but what an amazing book!! And the Murderbot Diaries. I could not stop reading. I’m also a huge fan of Joe Abercrombie. I currently have all he’s written and thrilled I have about half unread.
I loved this book so much. It was amazing.
I got my husband a medical emergency for Christmas… I cut my pinky fingernail completely off this morning and he’s not being very grateful about it.
Three item still life in charcoal to study the local value of items and their shadows.
My local value study for this week. #mfa #chiaroscuro #charcoal #drawing
I’ve started research for my thesis. My masters thesis. It took me 30 years but I’m here. I’m actually here. Enjoy a color theory assignment I did last week while I ponder bugs, perspective, and apocalypse. #MFA #thesis #artist #painting
Red boat with mountains in the background demonstrating depth through color placement.
Color Theory has been an amazing class. I’ve never used gouache to any kind of real success but I feel like I may be on my way. I still can’t believe I’m getting my masters.
#MFA
Grave marker in the Netherlands of Michael Rapko.
My great uncle Michael died in the Hürtgen Forest November 2, 1944 and is buried in the Netherlands. He was a member of #antifa
So charcoal is a thing I’m not used to. #mfa #drawing
My order from ThriftBooks came in and the local thrift shop was having a sale on books so, another haul. I’m not ashamed. #booksky
My latest haul! We are currently sitting at 565 books! My library has become an obsession, but a good one I think. #booksky
My masters program starts tomorrow and I feel absolutely sick with anxiety, anticipation, call it what you will. I’ve been waiting 25 years for this.
Anyway, gaze upon my Peruvian Cereus.
My masters program starts next week. It may be 25 years later than I’d planned, but I’m doing it now. #mfa
Jumping spider! This color is harder than red to get my darks. #drawing #jumpingspider #MFA #artist
Finished my bee last night. Drawing, I’ve always felt, was my weakest skill. Next, I’m on to a spider to strengthen my technique before classes start. #drawing #bee #MFA #artist
Made considerable progress between last night and this morning. Pretty happy. I’ve never been great with pencil, so this makes me feel a bit better as I hurtle toward drawing class in September. #drawing #artist #bee #MFA
Working on my pencil game today. It’s been a long time since I’ve spent time working purely in pencil. #drawing #bee #artist
So, I’m going to graduate school to earn my MFA. This isn’t spur of the moment but it’s happening way faster than I’d planned. #MFA #student #painting
I just applied to graduate school to earn my MFA in painting. I’m sitting here wondering just how insane this is.
Better!
Always another one on the drawing table. #crows #drawing #sketch #artnouveau
Ended the day here. Poppies and such. Learned to use math to draw an oval and nearly finished the initial drawing. #sketch #artnouveau #drawing
The sketch is getting there. I’m shuffling through all my ideas to get them on paper before my brain misplaces them. #sketch #poppies #portfolio
This is how it starts. Rulers, compass, red and blue pencils, lots and lots of overlapping line that look a mess. #drawing #painting #artnouveau
I would love permission to paint it. I’m rounding out my portfolio to apply to grad school. I would of course attach credit and make no profit off it. If not that’s fine too, it such a beautiful picture.
This is amazing. The light through the feathers, the colors, really beautiful.
At it again. This is the part where I hate it and resist the urge to tear it into a million tiny pieces then burn them in a ritual fire to get my mojo back.
#watercolor #painting #impostersyndrome #selfdoubt
Spent most of the day painting. #watercolor #scarab #artsky
