Existential Complex

I started my new job this week and I love it a lot a lot 😭

I finally finished the most recent piece I’ve been working on: “What Percentage of My Life Has Been Spent Criticizing My Appearance in the Mirror?” This is a 5-color screenprint and I cried a lot while working on it ❤️‍🩹

Oop 😬 I feel like I’m cursed. Sorry!

It’s disgusting

Feral. Yearning. Pining. Ripping my hair out. Desiring. Longing.

Gold leaf is so magical

Inside me there are two wolves:
🐺 One doesn't want to be perceived
🐶 The other one desperately wishes to be complimented

Omg that’s so funny because I love you so much

My beautiful baby

Progress on Damned if You Do, Damned if You Don’t

We don’t celebrate the fourth around these parts 🦋 currently listening to Parable of the Talents by Octavia E. Butler

Well hell.

The worst part about having an unsolicited crush is how hard it is to NOT text them or try to talk to them constantly. Go away. I don’t want these feelings 😭

Just you wait 😇

Rediscovered this video of me from when I was 23 & I would give anything to be able to tell this version of myself just how proud I am of her. Tell her how smart, brave, capable, & beautiful she was. How she was worthy of love & affection - to try to give herself permission to love herself.

“Damned if You Do, Damned if You Don’t” work in progress

[You Hear Yes by Destroy Boys plays softly in the distance]

This is an edition of 30 for the exchange but I have a handful of artist proofs that I made as “insurance” since this was only my 4th ever screen print (2nd after an 18 year pause) and I lack the ✨ confidence ✨

Was about to put this on for the first time last night but decided against it. I am regretting this decision and will be watching it on your behalf tonight.

80085 // an 8 color screen print on 8.5” x 11” paper (Sno-Cone color from French Paper) made for a Robot themed print exchange

Working my way through my second 8-color screenprint design and I’m loving how it looks so far

I don’t know who or what I am. All I know is that I don’t feel like a real artist, whatever that is.

I feel like I am constantly letting down my inner child and I realize it’s a good thing that I never had children.

I am taking way too long to finish this design 😅

The “covid is only a threat to the vulnerable” narrative primed the pump for the eugenics movement we’re seeing now.

It conditioned people to see the disabled & vulnerable as acceptable losses. People who were probably going to “die anyways”.

It paved the way for fascism.

It’s a self portrait. If I’m going to be a piece of shit, I’m going to be an adorable piece of shit 💅

“You Are a Piece of Shit” // stoneware // from my series Brain Exhibit inspired by my looping and obsessive negative cognitive thoughts

Trying to be sneaky while designing a coloring sheet for my coworker’s birthday while said coworker is also working 🥸

The butt in question

What’s wrong, babe? You’ve barely touched your my butt