💢🎒💊 ash/helsie 🏳️‍⚧️

it's called the dawn lesbian flag btw

stupid fucking people on my pinterest post trying to raise awareness about the sunset lesbian flag like "idk if you're spreading misinfo..." okay then fucking do your own research if you don't believe me???? anyways here's the post since maybe some of you here could help spread the word + new flag

if anyone's curious about what i've found relating to the c4nn1b4l1sm (such as code words and possible meanings, plus involved individuals and the exact place that most of the cooking took place, which nobody seems to know about?? anyways just dm me and ask me and i'll tell you 5/5

of the internet, and they are so effectively covering up all of the other serious things. not only are they trying to distract us from the files, but they're trying to distract us from discovering even more in the files by trying to get everyone to keep focus on what's already the main focus. 4/5

THE TRAFFICKING, WHICH IS SO FUCKING CRAZY??? "hey if you acknowledge that they are eating b4b13s then you're actually trying to overshadow the trafficking and therefore you're a bad person and you have to ignore the c4nn1b4l1sm or else" because holy shit they are still in so much control 3/5

"oh well it's completely speculation, don't be a conspiracy theorist!" and it pisses me off how clearly those people are being paid to say that/are apart of the cover up. I even saw someone say that people RIGHTFULLY ACKNOWLEDGING THE C4NN1B4L1SM WERE DOING SO TO OVERSHADOW 2/5

i've been reading through the files, mostly focusing on looking into the c4nn1b4lism, which is blatantly obvious, but there's no direct messages like "hey can you k1ll those b4b13s and turn them into j3rky to eat because i'm a c4nn1b4l btw" so people are like 1/5

like I'm so used to people saying she/her (which is... it's fine, you know? but I don't like it) that I fucking forgot what my pronouns actually are. holy shit can we stop she/her-ing me forever now 💔

nobody ever uses my correct pronouns to the point that my gf said "he" when referring to her stuffed animal of me, and for a second i actually semi- got offended and was like "he?" and then realized that i'm literally a he

thank you

I keep checking like anyone is actually gonna say what I need. i'm so stupid. nobody's here.

or I directly copy someone else's art and then never share it anywhere because I know I copied it. how would I draw myself? how would I be me? who is "me"? does that "me" even exist? I don't know. I don't think I ever will.

upturned nose. I want huge eyes with aegyo sal. I want d4gger-like eyes that give off a formidable vibe. I want heart shaped lips with the turned up side. I want lips that don't have an arch. how am I supposed to make something to represent me? I always just use whatever the cutest pfp I can find is

I want to have dark blue hair that touches the floor. I want a cute brown pixie cut with blonde tips. I want long false lashes and gyaru makeup. I want a simple smokey eye. I want natural beauty that doesn't need makeup. I want comgirl/egirl makeup. I want a small straight nose. I want a tiny

outfit. so then what am I supposed to draw? what I want to look like? there's so many things that I want, though. I want to be a small twig-like tiny baby who wears the cutest jirai kei. I want to be a curvy butch with a great sense of fashion. I want to be a tall and lanky girl with blonde hair.

sweat stains or my unshaven self in the summer. nothing I wear is cute, it's all just completely basic and neutral. nothing that hugs my body or flatters me. i'm not even sure that something like that exists. I don't have a bright or loud or interesting personality. I don't have a specific pose or

in the fucking hobbit are in comparison. it's honestly kind of embarrassing. I don't wear any jewelry, really (I always forget to put it on, or I lose it). I never do my nails and they always break off at a not short not long length. I wear whatever's warmest in winter, and what won't show

medium length, nothing special. not straight, not wavy, not curly, just a little frizzy and a little wonky. i'm slightly taller than most of my friends, I guess. I look huge especially when i'm overeating like how I am. not like, fat, I just kinda look like a giant in comparison. kinda how dwaves

you could replace me and I don't think anyone would notice. i'm so boring that there's nothing genuinely distinguishable about me. it's why it's so hard for me to make self-sonas. what do I even draw? do I draw what I look like irl? I have absolutely no distinguishable features. I have brown hair.

what I like to do, what my favorite foods,shows,activities,hobbies are, could I please just have an answer to give them? I don't even know how to explain this to anyone without sounding selfish and stupid. that's why i'm just avoiding talking to anyone that will want to know what's going on with me.

be happy with my life? I don't know. sometimes I have happy moments. but will I ever have a happy life with sad moments? is it always going to be a sad life with happy moments? i'm not saying I need all the sadness gone. that's unrealistic. I just want more good than bad. when people ask me

love that. don't get me wrong, I do have some good qualities, I have some good gap moe, but nobody's ever mentioned those things. the little things that actually make me special and beautiful. has anyone even noticed them? will they ever? will I ever be satisfied with how i'm treated? will I ever

don't actually love me. but I feel like it's impossible for them to love me like they say they do. because how could anyone ever love me? and why? and when I ask, they always give reasons that don't make sense. they list things about me that aren't true or that are actually negative and say they

cares about me because we're "related" (I am SO opposed to the concept of family) and they feel like that means that they have to. i'm not saying any of this is true. it's probably not. but it's the idea that there's a chance that it is true. honestly I feel like it's more likely. not to say they

but they just act like it. maybe A only thinks I'm her everything because she made up an idea of me in her head and is in-love with the concept. maybe L only talks to me because she feels obligated to take care of me. maybe C has so many friends and I'm just replaceable. maybe my family only

anything wrong with how they treat me. it's just how I feel. I sound like such an ass when I say how I feel because it sounds like all the love that people give me is just something I ignore and it makes me seem like a monster. I am a monster. the way I feel is that maybe nobody actually loves me,

I wish someone would respond to this with exactly what I want to hear. I don't know what I want to hear, though. and I doubt anyone will respond, let alone say what I want. I don't know. does anyone really care about me? I wonder that a lot. not to say that I don't feel loved. nobody's doing

skin. it's just so upsetting. but i'm not like, actively upset or like, breaking down because of this, don't get the wrong idea. it's just nothing. sure, I have good things in my life too. somewhere, probably, but I don't know. I waste every day and accomplish nothing and take everything for granted

things, ofc). my favorite things to do are: draw, sing, and do my makeup, but I suck at doing any of them. I don't believe anyone that compliments things about me that I know are horrible. I can't control what I eat and it's so upsetting because i'm going back to being even more uncomfortable in my

I don't know anything. i'm not nice. i'm not funny. i'm sensitive and get upset about things really easily, but I won't understand if you do the same. I talk so much but never say anything important. if i'm talking about something and don't know the details, i'll just make it up (only non-serious