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ohh wakes up with a migraine so bad I can't fall back to sleep. haha.

...? huh?

oh my god that would be crazy

:(

THEY'RE GIVING HER TWO LIGHTSABERS???????

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she's laughing at me

i'm going to find every paintbrush and snap them all in half.

but eventually. if i just keep painting. i'll see the wall. and then i'll be able to figure out how to get to whatever is on the other side of it.

i feel like im walking straight into a wall but i dont know the wall is there so im just walking without getting anywhere. and because i dont know the wall is there i can't like, climb over it or find a door or get a sledgehammer to tear it down.

anyway. clenches my fists really hard. a big part of the appeal of paintings to me is the texture, the roughness, the visible and unintentional marks left by the brushes. but its all of those things that make trying to do it myself feel like pulling teeth.

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shrink the predictive text. eat her as though she were but a cookie.

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sans

this used to be my strat but being in vc now is like a debuff for me if im trying to focus. I can feel my health ticking down if I try to process speech and do anything else

I don't think I've really done enough of these to see a concrete improvement that isn't just a difference in subject but thank you fel

they're making my ass do an escort quest in a zone where I take damage over time from the weather

target friend reached

at least you can match my pace and don't walk too fast for my walk cycle and too slow for my sprint cycle

they're making my ass do an escort quest

literally. the answer to basically and question about my art process is "it was either learn to do it fast or not at all"

saying "I only have to sit here and do this psychologically torturous nightmare for an hour" is also the only way I can actually get my unmedicated ass to lock in

I don't know if I could even spend more than an hour on these if I wanted to bc the rapid cycling between its so over and we're so back makes me feel a bit like I'm going to die

hour speedpaint #4

everything reminds you of me

okay i did 3 of those and a comm today. i sleep.

this one somehow felt even more like i didnt know what i was doing than #1 did. a bunch of different ideas for how to do things that i dont think came together.

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gremreaper and timechaser are so goated.