My new song youtu.be/4eXVeEdHkyA?...
19.02.2025 10:48
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скажи!)
As i've posted this, someone in the house (probably mom) started humming it simultaneously
it's THAT kind of song
Mindblown
My dad found this band who were active in my region in the nineties
Might do a cover, cause this is insane
Love the bossanova vibe
youtu.be/LKLL3qKIgJo?...
i'm BACK
О, в мене таке саме з музикою! Те все, що в музикалці не подобалося, прийшло таке і каже, вчи мене і стане краще
Хехехе так ☺буду вдячна!!
Awwww, likewise! ✨😁🌿✨
a nook in a certain Soho antique bookshop
So things ARE happening on here? Whoa🥰
My heart hurts today, hurts with growth
The first photo of mine that has ever made me want to print it out, frame it and keep it as a physical picture in my house
I can feel just how it'll transport me back from the distance of the years
Моя перукарка генійка
Того шо я тільки зараз зрозуміла ЧОГО мені так пасує цей колір
Тому що це все ще мій кольоротип і тому виглядає так, наче я такою народилася, але також цей колір підкреслює очі й риси обличчя✨✨скажу їй про це
Шото хочецця тільки хвастатись
But this is a reaction to years of living with diffuse & nonexistent boundaries, and once I get them visible, felt & in order, that should also be alright
And also I gotta be in control, that's another reason for why I do everything by myself. The adjacent parts of the world need to be how I like & organize them, & I don't think I'm gonna be able to get rid of that
Trying
Feels strange
But I love feeling strange
And I thought, what if I undermine it
Take away this crutch, and live like it was true, but is not true now? Like I just gotta be loud enough so that those who want to play w me, come, and let them play w me, & trust that it's genuine
𝘯𝘰𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦. 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳; 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘦. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨, & 𝘸𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘰𝘯
I've been thinking about why and when and how I've adopted my 'aggressively DIY' approach to everything, and I've realized that it's actually based on one presumption:
On my walk tonight, used another leg as my main to foster neuroplasticity, as I'm unlearning & dismantling a huge, deeply ingrained concept, one of the pillars of my existence:
thing about me, i love
Repotted my aloe vera, structured my new old song so that it feels like a fire burning from its bright beginnings till the very last cinders & ashes; been a good day
I wonder if that'll be of help when the thing hits tho; but I do feel like I got two feet to stand on now, unlike, for example, in 2021; back then I was woefully unprepared for everything that followed
reality (ie me) has been heavily preparing me for my Saturn return for around a year and half, & I like the intensity of the lessons I've been having since February & especially this past few weeks (boundaries, money, being in the body, having self-esteem, unmasking, accepting being queer)
😍😍😍
this one's a keeper.
I only come to the internet to brag
And to whine
Take this brag and take this whine
D'you get it? 😁no?
& it's the first time that I'm unlearning the childish 'you try & be a good person = nothing bad ever happens to you' fallacy; can't control the world with my goodness — and, it turns out, the world can't control me back
I guess I'm only just now growing up
The freedom that gives me, mmm