@zenith-and-blade
SF&F + horror reader. Sword & dagger fighter. WH40k lore junkie & gongfu addict. Full of rage, whiskey & literary hot takes. π http://zenandblade.wordpress.com
Anyway, my laptop broke this week, and then my dishwasher. I also put a hole in my wall carrying furniture. So thatβs nice. Iβm in incredible pain, so Iβm just going to spend the weekend at home drinking enough whiskey to kill a horse. Maybe I'll get hit by a bolt of lightening and die.
I havenβt been well. I couldnβt bring myself to train for the first half of the week, then I returned out of spite and hurt myself trying to do too much (because I'm ~weak.~) Heβs been hovering around, but Iβll keep my dignity, thanks. He can kick rocks.
It isnβt even the first book in the series. I looked it up and itβs the LAST ONE. What am I supposed to do with that?? He knows I donβt read smut, and if he thinks I'll read a single page just because he gave it to me, he's got another thing coming.
Am I being irrational? Maybe. Do I have anger issues? Yeah. Iβm not a good person, but he always knew that. Heβs been trying to βexplainβ and apologize, and he gave me one of his acotar books. Let me repeat that: HE GAVE ME HIS BAT PORN AS AN APOLOGY. Am I stupid or is that insane??
I had a rough week. Date went terribly. He admitted Iβm "weak" in certain areas of combat, and said he worries about me being alone at night. He offered to train me. What the hell kind of thing is that to say?? Like hell heβll train me. I told him to get out of my face.
We will miss you! Take care of yourself first and most of all.
And take our love~!
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Omg green tea vanilla milk sounds amazing. I rarely get green tea, but now I want to try one. I usually stick with brown sugar or a mango cream.
You know whatβs weird, Iβve never had one from a restaurant, only a cafe. Do you folks have the cute cafes there with all the board games? My brother and I like hanging out at those, theyβre so chill.
Whatβs your favorite boba to get? Iβm always curious to hear which ones people like.
Oh wow that sucks! We have so many here that one probably couldnβt be statistically busy if it tried. π
Itβs a library book. I donβt have the confidence in my aesthetics to just buy nice covers.
Cover of The Vanishing Cherry Blossom Bookshop by Takuya Asakura.
Back cover of The Vanishing Cherry Blossom Bookshop by Takuya Asakura.
I don't really click with w/cozy fic--Japanese cozy fic in particular. A pretty book cover has never moved me to read or buy it.
HOWEVER. I saw this cover, itβs talking to me for some reason. It's gorgeous, the sakura petals are gold foil, and it comes w/a cute playlist! Hope itβs good.
Man, I am so fucking tired, even knowing we're still at the beginning of everything that he and his rabid cabal of nazi cuntwaffles promised to do.
If I see one more brainless MAGAt walking around whining, "I didn't vote for this!" I will punch them in the mouth, I swear to god.
I hope things get cleared up for you today. Fighting with governments and insurances to get even simple things done is such a nightmare. I'm actively hating on that for you. π‘
But I'm hungover now, and sad. You'd think that the worst thing about processing pain is dealing with what's happened to you, but it's also everything (and everyone) you miss out on while you're trying to catch up and just become....normal.
Iβll delete this when I feel less pathetic.
I just don't know how to stop being hostile. He's never minded, he knows my reasons. He's always encouraged me to reach out to him, but there's still a part of me that wants to bite his hand rather than take it. So now heβs moved on, and last night he said he has a date today, and I'm happy for him.
Ugh that sounds like a nightmare, Iβm sorry! Hope it works out in the morning! β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
Chair siu buns with silly pig faces of them.
My Japanese bakery needs to calm the heck down. (Not really, I love their little cats and seals and bear pastries. β€οΈ)
Got myself a focaccia, onion bread, melon pan, chocolate mochi donuts and these char siu pigs.
Already in a bad mood, and now I discovered one of my favorite authors, Dan Simmons, has passed away.
His Hyperion Cantos is unparalleled to this day, but he was such a successful genre-hopper. I loved everything he did. Literature dims with his loss. π
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The Cranberries perform βZombieβ
My Mixtapeβs A Masterpiece: Under The Radar Revolution Songs
@sanshinsoba.bsky.social assembles 12 songs perfect for accompanying you when sticking it to The Man.
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Glad to see they've been making it through the winter!
I like TabiEats! They need to do more Hawaiβi stuff. ποΈπΊ Glad youβre enjoying the soup!
This makes me uncomfortable. π
Blegh Iβm so tired that my first thought was, βgirl thatβs too thin, you need something thicker to hurt someone.β
Have you seen the bookstack one? My hair isnβt long enough for a nice knot right now π
Dancing to Charlie xcxβs Brat album in my underwear and drinking blueberry wine straight from the bottle while I reheat dim sum for dinner.
Itβs the small things.
We're all paupers living on scraps. π
Yeah, thatβs understandable. I think the right time to pull the trigger is when the need to know overtakes the overthinking, and thatβs different for everyone. I also think if someone is interested and you ask too early, theyβll let you know, and you can go back to taking it slow until sheβs ready.
Iβd say to be more direct. At the very least, youβll know where you stand and if youβre using both your time wisely.
And also I HATE people who make their whole personality about something they can't change. So many US guys say, "I'm 6 feet," and I always think, "...and??? Is that it?" What a cringe thing to lead with and try to coast on. π Congrats, you've got nothing to offer.
