Just Gillian

Bad? No, I’m not getting bad “again”. This isn’t something “temporary”. This is the state I’ve been in for a long time. But when I become mentally exhausted from all the pretending, that’s when you see it too. It’s getting bad “again” for YOU. Because for me, this is something I have to deal with every day. Every hour. Every moment. I am only showing you the tip of my emotions, because if I let you see it all, you won’t be able to comprehend how I am even still alive. You’ve seen nothing.

Yep

#internationalwomensday

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There's gonna be people that will always miss judge u have an opinion on u + be dam right ass holes to u + no matter what will never change so don't waste your life on them trying to change their opinion. Just be you unapologetic tomorrow is never promised enjoy your life and be happy #mentalhealth

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I accept even tho I don't want to #fibromyalgia is here to stay my body will not ever be the same again , got to stop being so hard on my self for the things I can't do , and celebrate the things I can do with every bad thing there's a good thing just gotta find it.

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#fibromyalgia not letting me sleep yet again reacting to the stressed out day making me pay tonight.

E.N.T want me surgical hearing aids due to my hearing aids causing probs infections I said don't want surgical hearing aids , Dr respond can't u be bothered response was not a case of that hav child + autism violent outbursts he hits the area of my head were they would be ide be in trouble think.

Went to a E.N.T appointment today can they stop talking to there computer or floor and actually look at there patient when a large percentage that go there are hearing impaired or deaf I am hearing impaired with two hearing aids .

Hard cover book. Star Trek. The Girl Who Made The Stars.

Couple of world book day books . The Big Bang & the big family.

#WorldBookDay got some fun little reads for our Son.
He has #Autism & enjoys a good story time/ read along.

This year as a #Trekkie I actually got to add something myself.

A can of Monster: Juiced . Viking Berry flavour.

Think I just found my new favourite Monster. 😋

[a painting of a woman collapsed on her couch] i can handle anything that comes my way....except for when I'm fatigued, in pain, hungry, itchy, overstimulated, breathing, or awake mybodyistryingtokillme.com

So true

True

it is a an iron (the bottom of it) in front of pile of folded shirts and it looks like a shark CHORES

This scares me way more than the movie

Current mood #fibromyalgia #insomnia

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When your hearing impaired and you can't hear a wasp in your house first sign u no it's there it's near your face .

I just feel so let down by my own body recently. no matter what i do to give my body what it needs, i feel like nothing i do is enough. chronic illness is having to battle daily with myself and that's so draining physically and mentally.

Yep that's me #menopause

a woman with long hair is standing in front of a purple background with the words " you can run but you can 't hide " ALT: a woman with long hair is standing in front of a purple background with the words " you can run but you can 't hide "

When u have a GP appointment and your ass of a neighbor is here.

I hate feeling bad for cancelling something due to my #fibromyalgia

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I feel like some days I am going mad I talk to myself to push myself sometimes with my #fibromyalgia come on Gillian get your arse moving .

Don't u love it when u see some one after a while and they say was just thinking about u was worried.
Well there is a thing called a phone u could of texted rang so on so many fake people out there there becoming like flies .

Tonight's film I am watching in bed is how she caught a killer I hope it's a good film . #horror

Pretty much all day my head has been like this a headache I can't get rid of.

Does any one get it where there #fibromyalgia is there every day .

The #fibromyalgia tonight so bad level of pain so bad .

Watching the horder horror movie tonight in bed can't sleep #fibromyalgia kicking my arse again .

You no some times life gives u lemons we get these great big bolders.