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Helena Lancaster

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โ™“๏ธ๐Ÿฒ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธ 37, Writer (Fantasy, Poetry, & More), Goth, Historian, Nerd (lover of SciFi/Fantasy, Comics, etc), Cat Lady, Music Lover, Feminist, Free Spirit, Spread love not hate, ๐Ÿ”ต in red state, love is love, Ally of ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ, she/her http://helenalwrites.wordpress.com

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I have an adopted kitty and have had one for almost 12 years now!

30.04.2025 18:04 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 1 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Today is National Adopt a Shelter Pet Day! ๐Ÿพ

Whether itโ€™s a dog, a cat, a bird, a bunny, if you can adopt, I promise itโ€™ll be one of the most beautiful things youโ€™ve ever done.

In honor of shelter pet adoptions, hereโ€™s Lucky on his very first day with us after he came to his furever home.

30.04.2025 14:45 ๐Ÿ‘ 8390 ๐Ÿ” 1392 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 573 ๐Ÿ“Œ 122

Ten days to my next birthday. Iโ€™m not sure how I feel about turning another year older.

06.03.2025 20:08 ๐Ÿ‘ 6 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Iโ€™m positive you all saw the video from Coeur dโ€™Alene, where a woman was pulled out of her seat and arrested by men who claimed to be sheriff deputies, but were not in uniform.

I need the men to do something: When you see a woman being abused, step in. Step up. Get in the way. Put your body to use.

23.02.2025 16:12 ๐Ÿ‘ 15551 ๐Ÿ” 3617 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 664 ๐Ÿ“Œ 195

want to do the right thing. That part of me really sucks. I truly donโ€™t wish these feelings or experiences on another soul. I feel like a broken and cursed human being right now. All Iโ€™ve ever wanted is to feel loved & not question if itโ€™s real love or being used to manipulate me. This is why 20/20

23.02.2025 21:24 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

this broken heart from a family on no one. I donโ€™t even wish it on them. I still love them. Thatโ€™s the worst part. I wouldnโ€™t even wish this on my worst enemy. They broke my heart. They ripped it to shreds. I would never even wish them this pain. Iโ€™d still do anything for them because Iโ€™d still 19/

23.02.2025 21:23 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

them when they need it however you can. You donโ€™t make them take blame for things that arenโ€™t their fault. You support them. You lift them up. All of this was never love. All I gave was love. All I wanted and asked for was love. Yet all I ever got was everything but love in the end. And I wish 18/

23.02.2025 21:22 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

from a place of love. I say you donโ€™t destroy someone you love. You support them. You learn who they truly are. You love them no matter what. You donโ€™t put them down. You donโ€™t blame them. You donโ€™t trigger them or traumatize them. You give them love. You donโ€™t do things to hurt them. You help 17/

23.02.2025 21:19 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

even care what theyโ€™ve done because they feel so justified in what theyโ€™ve done because I was wrong in causing this drama and just need to be accountable. I need to grow up. That is what they said. They are lucky I didnโ€™t say something worse than leave me alone. They say hard conversations come 16/

23.02.2025 21:17 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

can just be left alone by them. Iโ€™ve been left alone enough. So Iโ€™d rather be alone. I may hate it but itโ€™s better than to have such people in my life that bring me down so low it destroys me from the inside out. It makes me feel such dark thoughts that I donโ€™t dare repeat them. And they donโ€™t 15/

23.02.2025 21:14 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

never make time outside of these events to spend time with me and get to know who I truly am, yet they can make time to have one of these conversations. It shows a lot about their true priorities as people and family members. It shows a lot about what I mean to them. If I mean so little then I 14/

23.02.2025 21:13 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

own lives because when I brought up how I practically begged them to spend time with me outside of birthdays and holidays, they gave me nothing but excuses if I got a response at all. Yet they always have time to spend with everyone else. It shows how much I truly matter to them because they can 13/

23.02.2025 21:11 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

horrible person that didnโ€™t deserve to be part of the family. It was like I was only around holidays and birthdays out of obligation. I felt like they enjoyed doing what they just did to me. Like hurting me was something they did to make them feel better for something theyโ€™re lacking in their 12/

23.02.2025 21:08 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

around and clearly never did. They tried to say words so I came back with actions speak louder. They had said that damage was done but the truth was they did more damage to me with how they would not stop berating me. They would not stop coming at me with the non stop attacks like I was this 11/

23.02.2025 21:06 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

with being spoken to that way. I especially wonโ€™t when Iโ€™ve put more work into such relationships than other parties. I made it clear if itโ€™s going to be that way then leave me alone. Iโ€™m done. Iโ€™ve been hurt. Iโ€™ve been disrespected. Itโ€™s clear how they really feel about me. They donโ€™t want me 10/

23.02.2025 21:04 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

was trying to use them to cause a problem. It doesnโ€™t blame them for asking for help. It doesnโ€™t scapegoat for people because they admit they have shortcomings. I said Iโ€™ll admit I have shortcomings and flaws but I will not take the blame for this. Iโ€™m allowed to ask for help. I will not be okay 9/

23.02.2025 21:03 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

And Iโ€™m being told all of this came from a place of love? Oh no thank you! Screw you and your faux ideas of what love is! This isnโ€™t love. Itโ€™s manipulation. Love doesnโ€™t stomp on triggers. It doesnโ€™t make people take blame for things they didnโ€™t do when they were trying to help when someone else 8/

23.02.2025 21:01 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

before it got bigger though I was being used as a pawn in the mess. But, no I should take the blame? Are you fucking crazy? Hell no! I didnโ€™t do anything wrong! I asked for help fixing it because of my own shortcomings and thereโ€™s absolutely nothing wrong with that. Oh but now it is wrong? WTF!?! 7/

23.02.2025 20:59 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

have time spent with me so I can truly be known for the person I truly am. I have not even been given that. Not even once. No, they give out an illusion created in their minds of me which is far from the reality of who I truly am. Now as always Iโ€™m scapegoated to a problem that I tried to solve 6/

23.02.2025 20:47 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Iโ€™ve cried so much I have to take allergy meds because Iโ€™m stopped up from it. Iโ€™ve said leave me alone so much I donโ€™t know what else to say. I would rather be alone because Iโ€™ve mainly been alone than deal with such treatment. No one deserves to deal with that. I mean I have begged just to 5/

23.02.2025 20:45 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

spoken to in some of the most cruel ways and told itโ€™s just what family does because itโ€™s part of love. No that isnโ€™t love as I ended up in the floor crying telling them Iโ€™d rather be dead. The ache from being so unwanted and feeling so unloved is so indescribable, yet so off the richter scale. 4/

23.02.2025 20:43 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

unloved person in the world. Iโ€™ve given so much of my heart and soul out to get nothing good back. I ask to be known for who I am. I canโ€™t even get time spent with me other than holidays and birthdays. I beg for it. I always get excuses. I got more today. My triggers donโ€™t get respected. Iโ€™m 3/

23.02.2025 20:40 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

of being hurt by my own loved ones. Iโ€™m tired of continued trauma. Iโ€™m tired of feeling like I donโ€™t matter. Iโ€™m tired of one thing being said but another being meant. Iโ€™m tired of feeling like Iโ€™m absolutely nothing to people who should love me. Iโ€™m tired of feeling like the most miserable and 2/

23.02.2025 20:39 ๐Ÿ‘ 1 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

Sorry Iโ€™ve been quiet. I was trying to get my sleep right and focus on life and the day job. And there was some family drama. Now some of it has been blamed on me. Let me be clear that it wasnโ€™t my fault but I was being used as a pawn. I tried to stop something but I still got blamed. Iโ€™m tired 1/

23.02.2025 20:37 ๐Ÿ‘ 3 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Iโ€™m George Takei and I approve of this message.

19.02.2025 15:47 ๐Ÿ‘ 144085 ๐Ÿ” 30035 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2293 ๐Ÿ“Œ 1514

If youโ€™re not scared, youโ€™re insane. My nightmares have nightmares. 2/2

18.02.2025 06:31 ๐Ÿ‘ 4 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

You know something is wrong when they admitted to election fraud, it wasnโ€™t investigated, we are in a Constitutional Crisis, Protests are happening everywhere not being covered by the media, and we are walking straight into a Dystopian nightmareโ€ฆwhile no one does anything to help us 1/

18.02.2025 06:30 ๐Ÿ‘ 7 ๐Ÿ” 0 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2 ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Just chuck it,,,,

18.02.2025 06:27 ๐Ÿ‘ 43 ๐Ÿ” 10 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 2 ๐Ÿ“Œ 2
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๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿฆ‹๐Ÿ’ช

10.02.2025 20:47 ๐Ÿ‘ 30924 ๐Ÿ” 5215 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 400 ๐Ÿ“Œ 197
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Silicon Valley Whistleblowers Warn Elon Musk โ€˜Hijackingโ€™ Republicans to Control Entire US Government Former followers of the โ€˜Dark Enlightenmentโ€™ say a planned 'neo-reactionary' hollowing out of government is happening in real time

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It is a lot worse with this behind him

11.02.2025 02:57 ๐Ÿ‘ 10 ๐Ÿ” 3 ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0 ๐Ÿ“Œ 1