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Today we did therapy from bed so I could lie down!

Right! I’m not reading with my eyes at the moment (c/o covid brain damage fuckin with my vision) but my last ebook I am in the middle of is a girly getting abducted by a evil sorcerer and it’s more that vibe. I hope I can finish it soon

ripping big off the vape during couples therapy like the dirtbag I am

Tbh I’d love if it were she was actually doing fucked up shit to other countries in defense of her own — morally grey sort of stories are more interesting than “jk everybody just says she’s evil bc misogyny”

Previously I didn’t have a test to show how fast I could read but I think the year I read 137 books shows that I used to have way better vision tracking before covid

Actually feeling very good about this because it’s validating — of COURSE everything (literally, everything) has been harder for me the last 2 years! My eyes got real fucked up by Covid!

I got the report from the 5 hours of visual/cognitive testing i did last month. Guess what: I can read side-to-side at the same speed as a 9 year old

shame lately is focused on 2 things: my disability, & my inability to reply to the 2 dozen or so messages from friends I dearly love that piled up while I wasn’t looking at screens

this was a bait & twist for me — she wasn’t actually wicked at all! Also i hated the voice for the next installment’s main character so much that I cannot bear to listen to it

I love this for you

this was a real treat

beautiful fish alert

you don’t hate rich people enough

i just read a news story about a chiropractor who murdered somebody and as the judge is sentencing him she reminds him "you took an oath to do no harm!" no he did not he is not a doctor!

Tesco the golden retriever lies on a porch outside, with sun and shadows streaming over her, smiling up at the camera like the happiest girl alive. Her favorite blue and orange ball is between her paws.

The spring enjoyer

Otis the black cat looks moody among a frame of flowers

Sarah, how's the writing going?

Wellll I started taking pictures of my cat as if she was getting married, so, yeah. I mean, great.

Two Canada geese walking through the snow along a steep, sandy riverbank.

Two Canada geese standing on a sandy patch on a riverbank. There is no open water and the frozen surface extends to the horizon behind them. One goose is looking out over the river, the other has its head and neck tucked.

“'Come back early’, you said. ’The river will be beautiful’, you said.”
#birds

to add to this: I just remembered I told one of these IQ-seeking men that the whole IQ test was racist and he was like “I’m biracial I think I’d know if it were racist”

Multiple men, over the course of like 10 years!! It should’ve been an immediate red flag

ALERT: they have the good coconut water at Costco. The refrigerated kind. The GOOD shit. And it is so, so cheap.

One of these guys was a construction worker, another was a tenure track professor with a doctorate. The male need to know a woman’s IQ score does not confine itself to the stupid ones & that’s just interesting to me!

The psychological drama aspect is absolutely present in Gold Rush. Complex relationships, multi-generational family, and a search for gold!

an older man in a suit and tie is crying while covering his mouth with his fist . Alt: an older man in a suit and tie is crying while covering his mouth with his fist .

me watching them wash the dirt

just thinking about how multiple men I have dated wanted me to take an IQ test presumably for the purposes of comparing our respective scores.

I did not date any of them for very long but it wasn’t until I stopped dating men entirely that I was like, wait, that’s not a normal thing to ask actually!

I love to watch them dig up dirt. Move the dirt, wash the dirt, find more dirt that is new and exciting dirt. Watching excavators pick up a huge truck that fell off a dirt hill is so soothing.

It’s therapist-approved, & by that I mean my therapist told me it’s the perfect reality show to watch if you can’t handle the yelling on bravo shows.

did a big cry tonight about my poor health & then turned on my emotional support show (gold mining docuseries Gold Rush)

The South ending Reconstruction and plunging their populations into a backward looking culture and economy until it was forced to modernize by the Civil Rights movement is imo a very clean parallel.

I love the lore we develop for our cats. Like we recently learned that Fraiser is a lapsed catholic. How? Unclear, given that Eli’s had him since kittenhood.

But what IS clear to me is that he approves of the new pope from America on the basis of theological alignment.

I love the lore we develop for our cats. Like we recently learned that Fraiser is a lapsed catholic. How? Unclear, given that Eli’s had him since kittenhood.

But what IS clear to me is that he approves of the new pope from America on the basis of theological alignment.