Lia Snook 🏳️‍⚧️

Therapist: Be kind to yourself.

Me: My palms are too large for me to feel like a real woman.

Normalise painting your nails badly.

Jk salons have ruined painting my own nails because they always look so fucking shit lmao

Huh. Uhm...

Yeahh.

Does anyone wanna smash my ribs with rubber mallets?

The yearning continues. For what exactly? I can't say, but, yeah :(

Being trans is pretty hard so It's understandable that people would have a wide range of grievances.

Having just spent the better part of a year recovering from surgery, seeing in real time how much my mental health was declining, yeah.

I'm just rambling. Be kind to yourself or something 💙

Like, you can be dysphoric about not passing without bitterly dragging down anyone you feel does.

You can be 'male socialised' and talk about the isolation you feel among cisgender women without discrediting the experiences of trans women or infering some kind of inherent 'maleness'.

It's crazy how many disagreements between trans people boil down to both sides being correct, but in an equally bad faith way.

Hung out with friends yesterday and it reminded me that I'm not my feelings or insecurities.

I feel like the past year I've been so scared of other people and I haven't really been living, just stuck in my head.

I feel hopeful for the first time in a while.

Brb deleting every selfie I've ever taken

One year post op woo?

and all I got was an ffs consult. Quoted for a brow shave and orbitals for 40k not including flights. Yeah I think I might just grow bangs instead. The photos they took made me wanna jump but honestly their assessment was pretty fair.

I really appreciate that! I've been trying to move away from Twitter because, I'm sure this is surprising, that place sucks for my mental health (and everyone else's).

FFS consult and 1 year post op GRS tomorrow. Gonna be an emotional day. I'm not even really sure if I'm ready.

It's not like I can afford it, but I figure the information will be good to have.

Ok sure Twitter is less boring than Bluesky but holy fuck my mental health has taken a dip for it. Sorta hoping the next algo change kills it for good and then I can just, I dunno, paint or something.

For real. It also makes you take stock of what you own which I hate doing 🫠

Moving sucks. Now all those things I told myself I would think about maybe doing have to go on an even further, more unreachable backburner than they were already on.

4 Years HRT. So wild. I usually take a photo and trot the timeline out but I'm not in the mood. Dysphoria has been tough recently.

A woman wearing a headband and a patterned dress.

Forgot how to smile again 🫠

A photo of a woman in a bathroom mirror wearing a patterned flowy dress with green and red and white and black colours alternating.

A photo of a woman in a bathroom mirror wearing a patterned flowy dress with green and red and white and black colours alternating.

New photos and new dress yay.

Oh babe I'm right there with you. I started really early in transition because it was and still is like super important for me. I just burnt out and I don't practice or get lessons anymore. Whenever I get too comfy the boy voice just creeps out 😭

I'm just like a cis girl, except I sound boyish 10 percent of the time.

Until I start actively voice training, which will be never 🫠.

Oh me? Yeah I'm really enjoying Mario Kart Odyssey.

A woman in a car who looks a little too tired to be in a vehicle in daylight.

I'll post something worthwhile eventually just watch this space. Here's a mid selfie in the meantime.

150 days post op and once again I'm crashing out at 6am. I wish I liked anything about myself. It's exhausting feeling like everything about me needs to change immediately.

I'm a hot mess at least haha. And yeah it is 😭

A woman laying on a couch with her eyes closed.

Fell asleep on the couch after dilation 🫠

Sometimes I look out at the city lights and I see the apartments with lights still on at four in the morning. I feel like the people still up at that hour are people I'd get along with a lot more than the people who are already asleep.

Wow. Balatro is hard carrying me through this trauma.

Biggest regret of transitioning in my late 20s: Not taking care of my teeth when I was younger.

Hey thank you! That's actually so nice haha