Gootsberry (ready for Spring 🌷)

Let go. Let go. Let go.

I'm not creeping or anything, I have not texted them in over a month and prior to that didn't do it much, just happened to notice they blocked me elsewhere on an account I never really use and I hate uncertainty.

bartlett pears, painted by deborah griscom passmore, 1902

bartlett pears, painted by deborah griscom passmore, 1902

"hello did you block me"

*Received*

"Nvm, forget I said anything"

I'm about 90% sure they blocked my number too, and the urge to send a text to confirm this is so strong, but like...what do I do if it goes through lmao.

Hello to Europe!

We just are getting up at 3am now ig

They abandoned you, and they do not deserve your time or energy, and the they will never again be who they were for 3 years. You need to move on.

You want a version of this person that stopped existing around February 2025. You will not get them back. You are in the bargaining stage. They abandoned you.

I can't believe someone can literally throw me to the wolves and I'll really be sitting here thinking, "I should text them just to see if maaaaaybe we can reestablish contact"

Fitful sleep

Grief.

Sorry to get all political, but I hate the stupid evil President! Did y’all know this

I do have plan for Azerbaijani immersion week 😎👉👉

I don't have plan, maybe is ok!

Gratitude:

- I have my apartment
- I have Dijon
- insurance lasts a month
- I'm free from my job
- I'm frei wie der wind

It's like oh! That's behind me! Yay!

abolish ice and transgender for everyone

I don't comprehend that I'm not logging into work on Monday. I'll probably just think I'm on medical leave still for a while. I think it'll really hit when I have to apply for MassHealth.

I feel better now.

I'm saying amen to that one extra hard rn

How are people contacting others in Iran? I haven't heard from or seen my friend in Arak online since 1:45am last Saturday. I have no idea if he's ok (are the US and Israel bombing Arak?)

Nothing surprises me but everything disgusts me.

It's wild that the US sanctioned the shit out of Russia for invading and destroying Ukraine and now is invading and destroying Iran.

what the fuck are they even going for? Pointless destruction and devastation of a city of 10 million people. It's depraved.

I wrote a letter that I will prob never send, and I feel better.

🥔

Let the potato rest.

Could seriously just go to bed, but work really seemed to be triggering my emotions, and now that my laptop is closed and off and never to be opened again, I am just ..........wiped out.

I was supposed to not talk about work on main, but I think I would have died if I hadn't so oh well.