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might be on here for a bit bc my feelings are sooo huge right now i'm overwhelmed and trying not to nuke everything and burn bridges because i'm suddenly feeling like everyone is going to abandon me

when is it my turn

i think it's really really gross and annoying that there's some people who only respond to my posts or try to talk to me when i post something semi sexual or like that tank top pic lol like that's really interesting i see what i am to u and i am not going to respond to that

basically if i'm quiet or slow to respond i promise it's not you it's my shitty brain being mean to me

keeps setting me off and i'm either so so depressed or horribly angry or panicked or numb lately. on top of that, some triggering things with my dad this week heightened everything and i've been having nightmares. i'm so tired lol but i have a busy day today so i have to mask hard

i'm not sure why but i was hit with a huge horrible wave of emotions about my ex best friend abandoning me again, it's been over a month since we spoke last but it's all hitting me again and it's causing my bpd to flare up and everything is so huge and extreme and overwhelming right now. everything

at least i don't have a lot of faith that i will ever find someone who Loves as deeply and obsessively as i do

i have been so horribly bitter about love lately. i get so sad and lonely about it, i couldn't even read a cute romance book without spiraling lmao. i crave passion and obsession, i want so bad to feel wanted and loved in a romantic way, and i feel like i just have never and will never find that

struggling to be okay with my brain today. too much anxiety and depression and self hatred i just really don't want to feel anything anymore everything is too much too loud ! ! !

they look too fat to fit into an airplane seat and then laughing it off and saying 'i'm not trying to be mean' like please understand how much trauma and low self image you have been instilling into my brain for the last 20 years. how is that casual and normal to you? why is that okay

i've been feeling extremely down on myself lately due to a recent breakup and just not being shown much affection or attraction in the relationship, and then my mom yesterday told me to my face that i'm overweight and it broke my already trembling self esteem. i can't imagine telling your child that