Decided to try and block out the worries of the world and travelling home with a visit to the rainforest ❤️ the peace and tranquility was much needed. I even saw a lyebird and she was beautiful 😍
Gosh the news is all so distressing. May end up being stranded here a while longer than planned, but feeling lucky that my family are safe (as am I). Thinking of everyone affected.
Dear Isabelle, here you were on day one of Melbourne. I'm back here again today for you. I feel so empty without you and remember this moment so clearly. I was so scared of the glass caving in. Little did I know what we would face. But you taught me to embrace #dailyjoy again ❤️
💙 thank you x
Thank you x
Oh how very special. Xx
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It wasn't thankfully!
It's really beautiful 😍
Rounded off part one of the Australia trip with a visit to Rottnest Island and the quokkas. So chuffed I managed to see some. Isabelle and Alexander would have loved how sweet they were and having a swim in the bays. Melbourne bound tomorrow.💙❤️
Gorgeous!
Yesterday I met the wonderful Danielle, who has also lost her beautiful son and daughter to ppa2 deficiency. She was the first parent who reached out to us after diagnosis and will always be a very special friend. And she has roos across from her back yard! ❤️ #grief #childloss
Dipping my toes in the Indian Ocean. Reflecting on the one and only time I got to dip Isabelle's toes which was in Australia too. ❤️ #grief #childloss
Well I had my first creepy crawly on my leg experience. Didn't over react at all 🤣🤣🤣🫠
A very special day seeing the roos again. My beautiful Isabelle would have loved it. I miss her so terribly and managing the anxiety and PTSD/grief is a daily challenge. Plenty of days still feel insurmountable without them, but today felt lighter ❤️
Made it to beautiful Perth. I couldn't bring myself to post any photos of Singapore as I missed Isabelle so very much, and she would have loved the cloud forest and dinosaurs. I'm feeling very anxious about being here without her, but I made it. ❤️
Off I go on my second Australia adventure. Missing my beautiful sidekick this time who was an angel on the planes, but determined to have adventures on both of their behalf. Couldn't resist this bracelet with the "my sun and my moon" charms. Always in my heart. X
My girls. It's all so unfair. They were supposed to be best friends forever. Borrow each other's clothes, scrap over toys, and then look after each other through adulthood. 💔💔
On this day 2 years ago, I was 5 days away from going to the mum and baby unit. I was desperately trying to find ways to safeguard you Isabelle, grieve Alexander, & take care of a newborn. Nothing is worse than living without you both. I'd go back to this time in a heartbeat❤️💙
Child loss isn't just felt on the milestone days, where they are visibly missing. It's in the quieter daggers of the scooter ride home answering questions about why children die. The deleting of her profile from the gymnastics app. Not being able to say 'picking up my girls' 💔
Getting ready for Australia without you is hurting so badly my beautiful girl. Our adventures will always be such precious memories. How you lit up my darkness. X #grief #childloss
Today, 8 years ago, I became a Mum. You changed our lives immeasurably for the better, Alexander. What an easy and joyful entry into parenthood you gave us. We miss you every second of every day. Today is caterpillar cake and a treat tea for you. We love you. X
Baby sister has started to show a real interest in our beautiful boy's photos. I'm so pleased, but my heart feels so heavy with the thought of telling her one day. His 8th birthday is coming up this week. How has so much time passed since we held you? Shared an ice cream? #grief
Another precious memory of you Alexander. I wish I'd videod this. You just loved cars and vehicles so much. You would love the huge train track set currently taking over the house, and helping F to stop your sisters sabotaging it. I should be refereeing all 4 of you. 💔
That's lovely. X
I'm so sorry. It's excruciating x
Yes! Would be nice x
Trying to draw some strength from your beautiful face for another hard meeting today, Isabelle. Parenting you still in the only way I can. ❤️
I'm terrified of going without her, without anyone, but feel it's my duty to them to do scary things sometimes to chase the joy.
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3 years ago, to mark the anniversary of burying Alexander, I booked a special trip with Isabelle to Australia. I'd always wanted to go & I promised him that I'd stop making excuses about things I wanted from life. Today I've just done the same in both of their honour. 💙❤️
