before i left my ex, i was so clumsy it was worrying. i dropped things constantly. tripped over nothing. it was starting to stress her out, and i was literally thinking i had some kind of neurological condition or something
since moving to this new room, i haven't dropped a single thing. huh.
pikachu with boxing gloves on, text below says "i am gay and stronger than all of you"
me during a manic episode
Book cover for The Citizen of Eastport, by V B Ruth. Front cover features portraits of three characters, one facing front and the other two in profile on either side, with a menacing metallic figure behind and overhead. Back cover shows a spilled rocks glass and a dead body in a pool of light. Blurb reads: Vi used to be a fighter. In the underground rings she was a champion, but on the streets of Eastport, where gangs and trade powers fight for dominance, the most she could ever be is a pawn. Instead she keeps her head down, takes care of her people, and tries to avoid trouble. Trouble comes for her anyway, when a wealthy citizen decides he wants something she has. As his net draws tighter around her, hope rests in the unlikeliest places: the provocative thief she can't keep her hands off of, and the childhood sweetheart she once betrayed.
It's here!! I've been working on THE CITIZEN OF EASTPORT for 5 years and it's finally time to unleash it upon the world. If you like messy queer relationships, intrigue, noir, and butch protagonists, you might want to check it out.
Available in ebook and paperback: books2read.com/citizenofeas...
thank you bb ^_^ it turned out brighter than i wanted, but i'll get better at color mixing eventually 😅💗
a big spoon and a kitchen knife in a blue container made from a painted coffee can
i finally finished a painting project, even if it is really small. most of my accessories in general are dark colors so i'm painting all my kitchen stuff blue for a change.
it definitely worked, i passed out afterwards for like 12 hours 😂
on the positive side of things, i'm looking for apartments and my #1 consideration is how much room there's going to be for the cat i'm eventually going to get 🥰
that for years to try and save up PLUS moving, only took a few days off in between, then got another job barely weeks after arriving and unpacking. and after all of that, i still got told i "didn't do enough."
one of the hardest things to deal with is the fact that i put myself through school despite a head injury and covid, got a job that required me to get up at 3:30am to leave the house in enough time to ride the train 45 mins and then bike for 45 mins in the florida weather, did
went on a 5+ hour walk to exhaust myself out of my thoughts and it kinda worked
trying to feel the anger without letting it poison me, and it's actually working pretty well
digital art of a glowing white computer screen against a background that is bright yellow office lighting. the screen reads "don't give up" in different configurations with pink and blue drop shadow, symbolizing the colors of the trans flag
it's kind of amazing i would find this now, given my life circumstances and everything happening to my community. i cried when i saw it. i made this after my ex came out but before i came out to her. a declaration for her and a reminder for me.
it doesn't matter how well someone thinks they know me. they don't know my intentions, no matter how confidently they state that they do. i know myself. i know what i went through. i didn't deserve that. it's not all my fault.
weaponizing your ability to remain calm as you intentionally rile someone else up who has more trouble emotionally regulating than you do is super fucked up, actually.
crying because of good things in therapy for once
thank you bb ^_^ 💕💕
i'm not going to let this make me hateful or spiteful. my heart is going to remain soft and hopeful, i'm going to expand its capacity and love more openly and freely.
oversized cow valentine's card that says "love moo" on it
me, a person's selfie against a white wall wearing a black tank top and a black, red, and white plaid cap
a beautiful sunset illuminating clouds behind a building
street art of a bright blue circle with 4 flowers; blue, yellow, orange, and red
to my most transformative month
things are good 🙂↕️
a snow-dusted parking lot with a tree and tiremarks
a tree with lights strung on it
a selfie of a person with headphones and a hat on, posed in front of a wreath on the wall
a sign on a pole that says "maryssa call your cuzzin nowwwddd im gonna find you"
lately
Image is a popular astronaut meme. An astronaut is looking at the earth from space saying wait, I am worthy of love? An astronaut is behind him holding up flowers and saying always have been
A message for you all to carry through the year
David Lynch in the filming set speaking in the megaphone. He says “Okay, let's try that again, but this time good.”
Here’s to 2026
glory hole by kim hyun
stopping at the library for some after-therapy reading 🥰
watercolor painting of a duck
watercolor painting of a silly round duck
even though i got ma'amed picking up my T i am so happy i am getting it again 🥰
my lyft driver is playing the gays greatest hits. i feel so zen.
i have survived work things. now time for therapy things 😩
send good thoughts...about to have the workiest work meeting of all time...
Life is soup but i am fork caption over a picture of a cat in front of a backdrop
a highway sign for exit 57
if you know, you know
