gochenourabout

when I was five years old, my grandmother appliquéd a pink triceratops on a pink sweatshirt for me to wear.

@feliciadavin.com didn’t this guy show up in your research???

you are a genius.

I at least don’t have my phone in my room with me when sleeping!

I’ll probably just look up some travel books in Italy instead . . .

YEP. sigh. if anyone has made a youtube cut that’s just scenery though . . .

oh the gay peach one! I wanted to see that for Italy, but now probably won’t ever. sigh.

i should know this!!! not sleeping in college and grad school made me SO SICK. but even so my brain is like, but seven hours SHOULD be fine.

the brain goblin must be satisfied!!! or it will CHEW

i’ll check in a week from now (cough maybe in two weeks) and see if the thought of step 2 terrifies me less!

i’ve only seen him in Ladybird which, er, didn’t leave me with the desire to see more of him.

this is always interesting in discussions about writing led by readers who do not write, because often the answer to “why is it like this?” is “I kept fiddling until the brain goblin wasn’t mad anymore.”

after much contemplation, i am still convinced of step 1

~is funny~

glad to know this. I just. what are we doing.

god the fan discord

YES

cheesecake is a gift.

I bought a refurbished laptop and a refurbished phone on ebay, and they’re working okay.

it feels like 1. achievable 2. it has had a positive effect in the past?

the thing someone else has doubtless said but which I remembered this morning is that shame/guilt are good for getting people to *stop* doing bad shit but not great at getting people to *start* doing constructive stuff?

i will try to watch it! but fair warning, my capacity to do videos is not much improved from my norm.

my memory is not always amazing, so it’s reasonably likely I read your posts but then misfiled them in the cerebral cortex?

yes we have!!! more tests are required.

perhaps it is deeply misplaced optimism, but I do think it is possible for us as a collective and us as individuals to move toward a way of being which allows for each of us to contribute in ways we feel good about without also feeling like we’re being stuffed into a hydraulic press.

I am finding my way through this, as are we all. I am obviously not doing a very good job!

Individually or systematically! It is not a little disordered to hold oneself to heroic standards, just as it is deeply antisocial to expect others to meet them.

(sigh)

IT DOES

could all of us have been doing more? Always and forever. But I do not think it is reasonable to take the intensity of individual effort demanded of cities literally under siege and make plans around that.