Me to my therapist this week: “So I’m in my era of talking to men in ways I’ve never spoken to a person before.” (Pauses and smiles in feminine rage).
Therapist: “Love this journey for you.”
It was a fascinating weekend 💫
Hehehe 💫
“So, yeah, I just came from a symposium where I got zapped by an energy worker, practiced my quantum consciousness and learned how to mentally time travel and this is the first time I’ve been able to fly without any anxiety meds. Cheers.” (clinks Diet Coke) ~ me to the 2 guys in my row ✈️ 💫
Slept decently for the first time in a week last night and dreamt of the phrase - “the trees will save us, they’re absolutely nuts.” 10/10 on all counts. Thank a tree today.
🌳 💫
Right??? And, like, this sentence?? This is one of the tamer ones. 💫
“And every once in a while, when I’m riding alone in the car, and whenever and always that I hear music…I think of you.” - in a letter from Rhea to Margaret on June 19, 1956.
Me during an info lit class today: “Yeah so Google’s gonna take what it knows about me and my penchant for searching David Tennant and Michael Sheen at 2am and show me what it thinks I want to see. And it’ll take what it knows about you and do the same (points @ random student).”
Solid plan. (Note to self: add lights).
Eeeeek omg I would SO go light things on fire with you!!! 💫
Ya doing alright, friend 💫
One time my therapist told me when she was taking night classes she’d walk around openly carrying a hammer to and from her car. “Nobody fucked with me,” she said. Anyway. I’m very close to adopting this tactic but my Cancerian Baby Rage ™️ would prefer a flamethrower.
Sometimes the knowledge that I’ve written three books hits me out of nowhere and I genuinely think to myself, “How? How did I do that while also doing everything else?” It almost becomes this vague, ephemeral memory.
Anyway. My writing process? Entering a trance state.
Rhea White once wrote to Margaret Anderson and asked, “Buddy, did you breathe me into being?” and I come back to that sentence time and time again when I try to explain the impact Rhea has had on me. 💫 📝
You know what? You’re so right. 💫
Right?!? This is the only idea I have but I’m like you, I wanna maybe go somewhere??
That’s a second checkmark for “yes” heheheh
This account has really just turned into a Macho Man fan page hasn’t it? 🤷🏼♀️ 💫
Hehe 🫡 💕 📚
My gift to myself for my 40th will be boudoir photos incorporating my books. 😏 🤓 📚 🤫
But the real question is, should I also incorporate my Macho Man t-shirt?
Update: managed to sleep. Also dreamt about sitting in the living room at my grandparent’s old house while a random guy did push ups in the corner.
Connected?
Obviously.
Wearing my Macho Man t-shirt helps with anxiety, so……do we think it will also help with insomnia? (Checking laundry basket, will report back later).
You know what?? You’re so right. I should go pay her a visit.
I get these little pockets of weeks where I dream intensely of numbers/letters. Last night it returned and I dreamt of “5742, 11, and 12.”
I also tried to write the letter “g,” but wrote “f” and had to fix it. F,G - effigy??
I can’t help but wonder how to weave these dreams into ritual. 💫
An up close image of a woman wearing a pink t-shirt with the words “Macho Man,” in bold black capital font. There is a pair of 1980s sunglasses above the font and in one lens you see the face of pro wrestler Macho Man Randy Savage
“I can do all things through (Macho Man Randy Savage) who strengthens me.” 💫 🙏🏻
An image of a post that reads “woman laughing alone with ghosts,” displayed in a black text box with white font attributed to the user name memelovingbot. Background image is an assortment of flowers that look like ranunculas or roses in shades of pink and orange
Subtitled: “Eldest Daughter with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and a Molten Core of Rage.” 💫 👻 ✌🏻
Thank you 😭 and zero worries!! They’re all saved so you can watch whenever 😊 💫 💕
Why, at the exact moment I ended my livestream discussing Exceptional Human Experience, did something in my kitchen fall over? Coincidence? Orrrr was it a test?? Hehe.
I see you, Rhea. Stick around as long as you’d like, you’re always welcome here
✌🏻 🫶🏻 💫
😳 what a bday treat
Nooooo 😑 😴 😬
