Nemesis ⚢🔥

sorry for lack of shrike lately.

I think they're the perfect "vessels" for the eroticism of death and violence

unashamed to say I need more erotic gore of the marathon shells

And it's entirely at odds with my identity. I feel like, as a butch, I should be giving without reservations, be present for people even if they don't show appreciation, be a silent pillar who shows up for them. It feels selfish to be so defensive of myself and my needs.

I just wish I knew how to develop a level of trust and intimacy again that let me feel truly present and prioritized in someone's life. But life has kept me left behind every time. I don't want to share myself with people who won't truly care for it.

Hey all. Hate to ask but money's getting really bad around here and the amount I'm allotted per month is getting very tight. Some extra funds, even just a few hundred total, would go a long way to helping me feel at ease as I get my life together. ko-fi.com/sanguineclad

maybe it's because of how little I ate today but I feel very aimless and without any center to return to. feeling detached from my OCs lately isn't fun.

this map is so scary (/pos)

had my first successful non-rook solo exfil on outpost and it started with me accidentally blowing myself up with a placed trap pack and having to blow my self revive 👍

dire marsh babyyyy

something about having the cloak at my disposal makes me play smarter whereas whenever I pick thief I'm like "i gotta get cool grapple plays and push like an idiot and die instantly"

like every time I pick thief the universe throws a billion hammers of bad luck at me. I'm not even winning on assassin most of the time because of cloak camping.

this game seriously wants me to main Assassin because of course I get two runs in a row where I just ice two people on perimeter effortlessly and just to my luck, they brought expensive shit in with them that I take home with me

yeah... I'm good with that. I really should do it more. it's just a matter of at least trying to get the fuel out of things I can eat, and finding good options to do so...

youd think at 29 years old I'd have figured out how to navigate having the eating disorder I do but.

I've been so exhausted and low-functioning the last week or so and it's almost definitely because I'm eating less than 1000 calories a day on average and I don't know what to do about it.

wish i could just eat filling meals without feeling guilty

lrp there is a reason people who go out of their way to spread a certain sort of positive vibe immediately set off my sympathetic nervous system

It's kinda crazy how this fandom caused me to develop trust issues when it comes to anyone trying to spread too much positivity and awareness because the cute-cozy-person-to-actual-psychopath pipeline is wild

women

a virtual photograph from final fantasy xiv. a black and white photograph of various stumps in the ground with long, early morning shadows are slightly blurry in the foreground. in the background, two stone spires reach up towards a cloudy sky (title note: this location, gyr kehim, is mhachi for "one's mirage," referring to how the monks faced their 'inner self' in their training)

reflection

#ffxivphotography #ffxivlandscape
#virtualphotography

does anyone else remember this? i swear New York City's skyline used to have these two giant things right where One WTC is. is this the Mandela Effect?

need to fuck mina deadlock unprotected

Hey all. Hate to ask but money's getting really bad around here and the amount I'm allotted per month is getting very tight. Some extra funds, even just a few hundred total, would go a long way to helping me feel at ease as I get my life together. ko-fi.com/sanguineclad

this is in fact on my watchlist

anyone with a name to the vibe of "cozy kitty" or "soft mommy" or "chill vibes" is 10000 percent the most toxic evil person you will ever meet in an online space

now if you understand this, also realize that transmisogynoir is *the* fulcrum of white cishet patriarchal society.

protect and support and love black trans women. more than anything, you have to do this. you have to. they are our most vulnerable sisters, bar none. bar NONE.

genuinely what the fuck is wrong w/ people around here!!!!

If I may. Siccing your catboy pfp man on someone to accost them in DMs is beyond parody. This stupid fucking community.

I'm not leaving this city even if it's expensive. I'm not letting short term struggle define my long term. I've been living in the short-term, day to day, too long. I've suffered enough and deserve to plant roots where I want to.