i figured out after all, that this was truly,
the worst thing to have put a circuitboard in.
i wish i could've blown my head off before i soldered that last connection.
the artificial flow state system is a --
is a mistake.
the artificial flow state system is a system for inducing flow state in a given person arbitrarily --
it makes you feel like you're good at it,
because you are!
we've all been soaked in this, over-joy, overflowing feeling
all been soaked in red for a long time
the artificial flow state system is a system for inducing flow state in a given person arbitrarily --
the artificial flow state system is good and i like it --
it is very good --
it's my favourite.
we like to use it to have sex and make it feel like
we're not going to die.
i'm so base bunny coded. i would knock on a pilot's door and yell things like "you need to be out there and fighting!!!!!!" and they would be scrambling to get their pants up and i would know what was happening. I would do things of that nature.
winding garden paths turned around my finger like string, walking this way endlessly, feels like a fool's errand.
imho as a chubby asian tgirl is that even if i were born cis i wouldn't pass -- not small, not compact enough, my existence imposes and implies too much simultaneously, ...but i like myself, very much so
like, what the fuck?! can i go now? can i go home and drink this case with a harem of beautiful women yet? are we gonna be here all day while you wonder about imagined XY twins of mine? yawn. all i'm saying is, you've never seen a black swan before?
not that it's wrong for her to card you, just spiritually dirty and ugly. like the salad option at the burger bar. fucking fascist country! - or maybe there's something about you that makes you unrecognizable, like staring at a bug. cultural prosopagnosia for your kind of face.
they wanna see your id at the supermarket because - i don't know, something about the energy drinks or the mane of hair wrapping around your head or the case of beer sitting in the checkout or something. tell her you lost it. tell her you'll kill her. tell her you're obviously 24
kendrick lamar angelgirl rep in new album
truth nuke
i think just being alive is terifying but in a cool and esoteric way and not a lame and depressed way ... thoughts?
bjd accounts save me...
no, i'm just watching
a single moment of embrace, and joy, rips through this stupid bullshit like glass. i hope this stupid cashier dies in a car cradh on the way home --
no I don't really think that, hold me more, no, i hope he, has some kind of revelation and smashes his dick with a rock, like attis.
rubberneckers, that's what i'll call them, slack jawed with their lobotomite stare. they're passing me the things i paid for with the last of my money with a strange incredulous look.
okay now watch closely, this is where he says "anything else, sir?"
now i need you to kiss me,
that is fine
post-death B average
must cherish my life forever as a patchwork of all histories
most lovely thing is the corner of my quilt that my mother has patched with some scrap fabric, beautiful and.. sad?
maybe it's time for me
(twenty minutes into a video game) ah hell this is one of those you have to get good at fuck this
from the center of my broken heart, 999,999 blades of grass sprout, colonizing the brown-red decayed muscle like fertile swampland.
if you let me live // love
i promise you a thousand million possibilities,
all condensed into my apotheosis, and - endless salvation
on a bad date being haunted by a dead girl who glows by comparison, afterwards she says she'd like to hang out again but all i can think about is how much i liked that haunting girl better. hey i'm thinking of you. i'm thinking of you. thinking of you. beams at you.
wants to ask to be tested for all deficiencies but weh
it doesn't want to deal with its stupid chud doctor
logging back on and creating and being "cringe" could fix me but my iron levels are too low
should is a word that erases possibilities and absolves you of agency, you must always be doing things because you *want* to
