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THE CRANBERRY

Its gonna be better, Im just trying to take the year 1 day at a time but so far its been soooo rough

Today has been absolutely ridiculous for me mentally. I really need this year to be different I just dont have the energy any more for stress and drama Im just so incredibly tired

New planner :3
#hobonichi

hard cover too...AND I bought them from my local bookstore for a better price than AMAZON ugh im so happy I bought some cute stickers too

New Callie hart books acquired i am going to be a busy busy little reader this weekend

A picture of a pair of handmade embroidered patches. It's a lesser stag beetle with its larval stage. They are colored blue and have a lilipad motif

Another pair of handmade embroidered patches. This ones are a baby and adult leaf bugs, they are orange with red "leafs", and green details

This patch pairs will be available in my shop next week on the december batch

#SciArt #embroidery #insectart #art

Flying loon among broken chunks of ice on a bright red background. Bottom text reads abolish ice.

I need these omggg

Doodles dog

The world sucks alot, ive let so many of my dreams go and I hold on so tightly to the ones I still have, but sometimes I imagine what my life wouldve been if I wouldve chosen the path I wanted and not the path to safety

Obviously when I was pursuing art college I wasnt pursuing it to be an nsfw artist, I was pursuing it to become a designer, and illustrator maybe even an animator and my art at the time reflected that. I pursued nsfw because I needed the money and even that was not enough to help me afford college.

And unfortunately when I dont draw nsfw it's often not interacted with or enjoyed because thats not what people followed me for

I wish I had the time and patience to make more art that makes me happy and has more substance, I love color I love shape I love nature and fashion I love so much in art that simply gets squashed because nsfw is what gets me likes and follows on my other accounts and makes me money.

Can u make me an awesome cuz u love me and im huge and eat all the other comments and

I have gotten way better about controlling my emotions and not lashing out or being petty if something happens to me that I feel is unfair but its still a struggle, especially when it comes to me and my partners daily lives because we are the same and opposite in so many different ways.

Im finding myself fighting my short temper agin as of recent, im very frustrated and alot of the finances are on my shoulders, which I dont mind!! I like it better when they are however Im struggling to juggle work and home and its been causing me to get frustrated very quickly

This is so real

800 oil changes later

I am ready for my christmas break I am ready to sit at home and listen to christmas music and bake cookies with my wife i DO NOT WANT TO WORK RAAGH

I may also just be mentally ill

Im soooo thirsty and feel dehydrated but for some reason all water tastes like poison rn. Like I had alittle bottled water YUCK I had some tap water with ice but I think my brita filter is bad/going bad so it TASTE YUCK I am craving good tasting water so bad rn

Dude edging yo shit like that smh

That first one is OUTRAGEOUS OMG

I wish I still had the drive to do traditional art mediums, like painting. It was a part of me that I kind of let die once I realized I couldnt afford college so I still have all my stuff all packed up but I doubt ill ever use it again

More on all this later, I need to think on this topic some more. Its kind of random day to day how I feel about this topic, im still young and exploring and learning about myself so Im not gonna worry about this too much

And it complicates my ability to have meaningful, sexual interactions with others who arent my partner. My brain is wired to be unbiased to sex, unobjectifying to all around me. Mood swings and drops/rises in my libido are random