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Holy shit yall like my G3 ( REDACTED )

I'm so happy!!

Now I feel motivated when I'm supposed to be sleeping.. darn it

Thank you so much!

Remember horse the movie?

It's been a rough week I hope this upcoming week will be better. I hope to feel inspired again not only in art but in life.

Love you all platonically thank you for giving me something to look forward to. It means more than you know ❤️

Sorry for the ramble again, tomorrow will be my last day away from the PC before resuming commissions on Monday.

I'mma try to sleep if I'm able haha.

Thank you for those who reached out and for the concerns.And then support about my situation for my financials atm. It means so so much

** these meds are all prescribed I don't think I needed to say that I HATE taking pills so bad I wish I didn't have to take any meds 😞 but this is my life

Sorry last one taking so many pills daily had to maintain barely emotional stability and needing therapy twice a week ( trying to find a 2nd therapist again)

I'm just a mess trauma wise even after so many years of therapy.

I'm trying my best, just know your not alone if you have been through CSA

It just hurts, night terrors, flashbacks,severe CPTSD,BPD,Severe Anxiety, tremors, I get so scared even seeing certain videogames and even damn accents and people that look like him make me freak out so bad. Certain dates, hotel rooms, going to anywhere alone, and so much more affect me daily 3/3

It still pops up?
Seeing popular figures and niche figures get platformed makes my stomach nauseous..

Knowing victims and talking to them some prior to public knowing about their predator.. it hurts knowing how the victims and their stories were treated
Not just one but several situations.
2/3

Sorry CSA trauma has been flaring up today..

Not sure like so much flashbacks than usual.

Sensory wise and just content that just.. not directly related but in a spiderweb way low-key connects back.

There are random things like certain videogames that mine was connected w/even muting terms 1/3

I am an SFW vendor so they came from the AD hall to the SFW one to do this trade.. tried to do the same thing at another con... I declined knowing the design..

It was so uncomfortable

It had 0 nsfw elements on it just a mascot for that type of company.. so it was a " if you know.. you know.."

I didn't want to associate with that just not.. what I want to associate with my brand at my booth. We hid it the entire con

Well cons even FF ones can have an AD hall.. and they sell "SFW " items.

They did a plush trade with our table for their plush.. I was like ok it looks cute whatever

Then post trade.. so like after they left "oh yeah this is a baby fur diaper fetish mascot plush"

💀 Should've told me this before

would NEVER wish this on anyone being CSA ruined my life. I've been in therapy for 5 or years with several therapists and a psychiatrist and take 10+ pills only for mental issues not even physical yet

No one realizes how damaging it is no one realizes how crushing daily life is almost 10 Yrs later

I'm avoiding these "family friendly " events. It's so many now, I feel sick to my stomach.

How dare you call yourself family friendly when you uplift AND platform pedophiles and those connected DIRECTLY to them

I'm a CSA survivor, I live everyday flashbacks and trauma responses and therapists

Kids are buying from these people btw b/c these are family friendly events

Ofc cute animals and marketable mascots are going to be on hand without people knowing it's sourced from a pedophile

Someone did a plush trade without disclosing it was a fetish plush it looked like normal BAB like plush 🤮

Because this is labeled as "Drama" in the niche communities.

I know the victims directly of several situations. And it's sickening how NONE of these predators have faced consequences

They continue to perform, be on panels, and vend at these conventions. People unknowingly supporting pedophiles

Speaking out publicly will get you blacklisted and that's the really messed up part..

I'm lucky that some of the teams I'm in are actually VETTING their staff,panelists, and vendors.. we really don't need to platform pedophiles and let them gain from these events

I don't like the rise of events being run by pedophiles/pedophile sympathizers..

But everyone turns their head because "good art/animations/music"

Then Claim to be CSA Allies, while platforming and supporting them financially at cons through merch tables.

Thank you sm for the feedback! As much as I love the gradients I know they aren't for an multipurpose art practical design but I still wanted to capture that feel I'll try these tomorrow and see how these go thank you so so much

Any advice appreciated for hair colors

Hmmm..

Plush and pins are available for pre order!

three ponies sitting at a table with a rainbow in the background ALT: three ponies sitting at a table with a rainbow in the background

Her mane copies basically all other G3 manes lmao

Maybe I should just have random streaks be green and blue instead of a gradient..

I need to simplify her mane (( not the shape but mainly colors))

but she's also based on G3 (( that's why her hair markings on face and cm)) and Northern Lights.

Heyo! I have Commissions open!

I had to pay for a huge expense that used up all my savings & Rent.
I can take on a variety of projects!

Check my Ko-fi Below if Interested
Any Shares are deeply Appreciated thank you so much!

Reminder I do have a Strawpage if you want to ask ( #QNA ) my #ocs / #shufflejack or myself anything. Fun stuff,art tips ,etc

Strawpage is open :)