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kauri c. kiliann

@deadmanspoems

xe/he • 24 • aroace transmasc • audhd, bpd, npd • queer fantasy, horror & dark fiction writer current wip(s): too many, send help https://kauri.carrd.co/

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Revon, a disabled man wearing his brace and using his cane, stands under a spotlight with the words in large letters: HELP ME LEAVE MY ABUSIVE HOUSE! aka, my abusive mother is kicking me out. Please. HELP.

Revon, a disabled man wearing his brace and using his cane, stands under a spotlight with the words in large letters: HELP ME LEAVE MY ABUSIVE HOUSE! aka, my abusive mother is kicking me out. Please. HELP.

Revon, a disabled man wearing his brace and using his cane, stands under a spotlight with the words detailing his request with some words emphasized: I'm making a mutual aid request. I need help. 
My mother has issued me an eviction notice. I have to leave by April 1st, or she will kick me out with police force. She has threatened to do this a couple times. This time, I know she means it. 
I will be moving in with @CryptAesthetics, who has been made aware of every step of her abuse since it began. We're aiming to move out by the end of March, and I need assistance raising money to pay for first & last month's rent, plus movers for myself since most of my friends do not drive, but can help pack. Whatever else we make will help me puchase house essentials & mobility assistance, and help pay part of @CryptAesthetics first/last, too. 
We are looking to raise a minimum of 2000 CAD. 1500 for first/last on my part, 300 for movers, & 200 for a new mattress for myself. 
If you can help, please donate to my ko-fi: ko-fi.com/themythicbunny or my paypal, linked in the replies of this post. 
In the following image, I will be detailing the situation as it's unfolded, with the added notion that I do not have steady access to the kitchen, and thus haven't been able to keep or have food steadily since August, and must constantly order food, putting myself in debt to feed myself. I've saved up 200 the last two months by limiting food.

Revon, a disabled man wearing his brace and using his cane, stands under a spotlight with the words detailing his request with some words emphasized: I'm making a mutual aid request. I need help. My mother has issued me an eviction notice. I have to leave by April 1st, or she will kick me out with police force. She has threatened to do this a couple times. This time, I know she means it. I will be moving in with @CryptAesthetics, who has been made aware of every step of her abuse since it began. We're aiming to move out by the end of March, and I need assistance raising money to pay for first & last month's rent, plus movers for myself since most of my friends do not drive, but can help pack. Whatever else we make will help me puchase house essentials & mobility assistance, and help pay part of @CryptAesthetics first/last, too. We are looking to raise a minimum of 2000 CAD. 1500 for first/last on my part, 300 for movers, & 200 for a new mattress for myself. If you can help, please donate to my ko-fi: ko-fi.com/themythicbunny or my paypal, linked in the replies of this post. In the following image, I will be detailing the situation as it's unfolded, with the added notion that I do not have steady access to the kitchen, and thus haven't been able to keep or have food steadily since August, and must constantly order food, putting myself in debt to feed myself. I've saved up 200 the last two months by limiting food.

Revon, a disabled man wearing his brace and using his cane, stands under a spotlight with the words detailing his situation, with some words emphasized with different colour: In December 2023, I re-connected with my abusive mother who claimed to have changed and was 'doing better'. After a couple of months, I thought this change was permanent, and she made the offer to move in with her in April 2024, in my childhood home.
This was my mistake. I trusted her, and put faith in her, hoping that the change she displayed was permanent. It was not. 
For the past two years, her treatment towards me has worsened significantly, especially these last several months. It turns out, just because someone doesn't beat you anymore, doesn't mean they've stopped being abusive altogether. She has completely iced me out while removing access to essentials such as access to the bathroom on the  same floor my room is (I am disabled. I can't be constantly going up and down stairs. She forces me to do this anyways by locking the door every night), removed toilet paper handles, taken away essentials I helped purchase with my own money, financially abused and harassed me, gaslit me, has weaponized, discriminated, and mocked my mental and physical disabilities, because they 'made her life worse', threatened to keep me hostage in her house until I paid her back money that I owed her, and turned every single one of these situations into her being the victim. Now, she's misgendering me and actively insulting me and my siblings loudly on the phone and to friends, slamming doors, cussing and cursing about me when I'm home, and doing everything she can to scare me. 
It's working. I'm scared. And I need out.

Revon, a disabled man wearing his brace and using his cane, stands under a spotlight with the words detailing his situation, with some words emphasized with different colour: In December 2023, I re-connected with my abusive mother who claimed to have changed and was 'doing better'. After a couple of months, I thought this change was permanent, and she made the offer to move in with her in April 2024, in my childhood home. This was my mistake. I trusted her, and put faith in her, hoping that the change she displayed was permanent. It was not. For the past two years, her treatment towards me has worsened significantly, especially these last several months. It turns out, just because someone doesn't beat you anymore, doesn't mean they've stopped being abusive altogether. She has completely iced me out while removing access to essentials such as access to the bathroom on the same floor my room is (I am disabled. I can't be constantly going up and down stairs. She forces me to do this anyways by locking the door every night), removed toilet paper handles, taken away essentials I helped purchase with my own money, financially abused and harassed me, gaslit me, has weaponized, discriminated, and mocked my mental and physical disabilities, because they 'made her life worse', threatened to keep me hostage in her house until I paid her back money that I owed her, and turned every single one of these situations into her being the victim. Now, she's misgendering me and actively insulting me and my siblings loudly on the phone and to friends, slamming doors, cussing and cursing about me when I'm home, and doing everything she can to scare me. It's working. I'm scared. And I need out.

‼️ URGENT MUTUAL AID REQUEST ‼️

Please help me move out safely. I'm being kicked out of my current living space. I need to be out by April 1st. The details are in the post. I need a min.of 2000 CAD. Ko-fi link here:

ko-fi.com/themythicbun...

#mutualaid #trans #disabled #helpsky #disabledcrowdfund

05.02.2026 18:35 👍 369 🔁 546 💬 7 📌 12
Stylised portrait of two people, their faces pressed together as they stare into the distance. One has long straight hair while the other has shorter, curly hair. They are painted in blue tones with purple highlights while the background is bright pink (bisexual lighting hehe)

Stylised portrait of two people, their faces pressed together as they stare into the distance. One has long straight hair while the other has shorter, curly hair. They are painted in blue tones with purple highlights while the background is bright pink (bisexual lighting hehe)

Study but make it #OCs

#OC #OCArt #Art

27.10.2025 10:52 👍 52 🔁 15 💬 0 📌 1

How about a promo day? If you're a non-American author that has been in any way affected by American imperialism please share your work and how best to support you under this thread. ❤️ #WritingPrompt

03.01.2026 15:02 👍 92 🔁 75 💬 4 📌 1

This is genuinely stressing me out because if you follow me back i obviously assume you're cool with it and then finding nasty comments from my mutuals after we have been mutuals for months is a little awkward, yeah? So can we not? ty <3

03.01.2026 01:21 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

Scheduled reminder to not follow me back if you have a problem with people with any personality disorders, but like. Definitely if it's one i have lol?

03.01.2026 01:17 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 1

Enjoyed writing a bit again :)

30.12.2025 18:02 👍 3 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

I hate the longer you're sick the less people care because im trying to signal it's rlly bad rn but it was already rlly bad a year ago so ppl just shrug

29.12.2025 23:33 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

The joy of life is that whenever you think you reached a low point it manages to get worse!! That's art baby

08.12.2025 15:53 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0
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ghost of a king

18.11.2025 18:25 👍 1421 🔁 253 💬 5 📌 0
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How to disable Gemini on Android, Gmail, Chrome, Photos, & Google apps. Opt out of AI tracking now! | Tuta First Android, now Gmail, Photos, Drive an more: Google is allowing Gemini AI access to all your data – even your emails, photos, calls, and texts. Follow these steps to turn off Gemini AI on Android ...

I swear we all did this a couple months ago but now we have to do it again.

21.11.2025 23:59 👍 42 🔁 28 💬 1 📌 0

Why are periods of great distress the moments i get out of writers block this is really not the damn time

21.11.2025 02:38 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

It’s transgender awareness week, so if you weren’t already aware, you are transgender

16.11.2025 22:04 👍 1978 🔁 712 💬 55 📌 24

Idk why i made all my writer space accounts when im barely holding on enough to stay alive let alone actually write

17.11.2025 01:00 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

I keep getting stuck with my fantasy & horror stories so I'm considering. Maybe, big big maybe, to write down slightly fictionalised personal experiences? Has anyone done that does it fuck as hard as I assume it will

15.11.2025 21:52 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

I will never use AI for my covers, editing, translation, or anything else. It is not only useless to me as an author, it is actively hostile and harms every skill related to book production.

If you're an author against AI used to generate writing, you better back everyone else in the chain too.

07.11.2025 16:46 👍 323 🔁 101 💬 8 📌 28

Reposting because, and I say this with love, some of you are going to see this and go “oh shit, I need to check my bottle” and then immediately forget about it so if this could affect you, go check right now before you even scroll to the next post, I mean it.

05.11.2025 20:52 👍 1964 🔁 2344 💬 26 📌 8

It hit midnight in my timezone and my mom was the first person to text me, within the minute 😭 love that

05.11.2025 23:12 👍 0 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

Censorship is now coming for your dnd and your warhammer and your farming sim, they don't care if it's not adult content. They wanted everything

03.11.2025 14:50 👍 4193 🔁 3406 💬 26 📌 17

Python was awarded a funding grant, funding grant asked Python foundation to remove all diversity and inclusion initiatives they have.

Python foundation said no and rejected the grant.

If you use Python, send a few dollars to the charity to keep it going. I’m pushing a dono on behalf of ScamGuard.

27.10.2025 16:11 👍 8650 🔁 4831 💬 21 📌 43

Would love to close off #AsexualAwarenessWeek with a few sales, if folks are so inclined 💜

24.10.2025 14:47 👍 13 🔁 16 💬 0 📌 0
A trope map on a black satin fabric background.
The story cover features white sheets with a grainy filter. The title reads: "In Their Hands. A t4t erotic somno shorts" in white font. At the bottom, in black font, "Rey Rider."
The tropes and tags, pointing to the cover with white arrows, read: somno, first-to-second-person PoV, strap-on fucking, making your own movie, aftercare, eating pussy like the MC's life depends on it, established couple, squirting, T4T (enby x enby), processing trauma through kink, 4.5k short story.

A trope map on a black satin fabric background. The story cover features white sheets with a grainy filter. The title reads: "In Their Hands. A t4t erotic somno shorts" in white font. At the bottom, in black font, "Rey Rider." The tropes and tags, pointing to the cover with white arrows, read: somno, first-to-second-person PoV, strap-on fucking, making your own movie, aftercare, eating pussy like the MC's life depends on it, established couple, squirting, T4T (enby x enby), processing trauma through kink, 4.5k short story.

A green book cover with the title “ALCAEUS – A Touch of Dionysus” on a desaturated background photo of a statue of the god Dionysus next to another person. The cover has veins around the border and an illustrated image of an olive branch above the author name, “Rey Rider.” The cover is surrounded by the following tropes and kinks connected to the cover via arrows: “bathhouse, genderfluid Dionysus x middle aged cis man, D/S, subby old man, railed "without mercy," 6.2k short story, nectar precum (yup), vine bondage, rough sex, dom top Dioynsus."

A green book cover with the title “ALCAEUS – A Touch of Dionysus” on a desaturated background photo of a statue of the god Dionysus next to another person. The cover has veins around the border and an illustrated image of an olive branch above the author name, “Rey Rider.” The cover is surrounded by the following tropes and kinks connected to the cover via arrows: “bathhouse, genderfluid Dionysus x middle aged cis man, D/S, subby old man, railed "without mercy," 6.2k short story, nectar precum (yup), vine bondage, rough sex, dom top Dioynsus."

A purple book cover with the title “HYPATOS – A Touch of Dionysus” on a desaturated background photo of a statue of the god Dionysus next to another person. The cover has veins around the border and an illustrated image of a grape above the author name, “Rey Rider.”
The cover is surrounded by the following kinks connected to the cover via arrows: “nipple lay, genderfluid dionysus x transmasc human, praise, light d/s, riding, 5k short story, sub top x dom bottom, nectar lactation (yup), divine t*dick, squirting, strap-on fucking.”

A purple book cover with the title “HYPATOS – A Touch of Dionysus” on a desaturated background photo of a statue of the god Dionysus next to another person. The cover has veins around the border and an illustrated image of a grape above the author name, “Rey Rider.” The cover is surrounded by the following kinks connected to the cover via arrows: “nipple lay, genderfluid dionysus x transmasc human, praise, light d/s, riding, 5k short story, sub top x dom bottom, nectar lactation (yup), divine t*dick, squirting, strap-on fucking.”

Hi! I'm Rey Rider (they/them), a late 20s neurodivergent transmasc non-binary writer of queer erotica.

I currently have 3 short stories published:
🌶 In Their Hands
🫧 ALCAEUS
🍇 HYPATOS

Find them on Smashwords: www.smashwords.com/profile/view...

More info on my Website/Carrd: reyriderrr.carrd.co

12.10.2025 13:18 👍 18 🔁 11 💬 0 📌 1

Currently not allowed to take my meds and im having the worst time with it but i *did* end up writing a little so i suppose my agony isnt for nothing (help me)

11.10.2025 10:21 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

im too tired to rehash this for what feels like the millionth time, but erotic art/writing which explores taboo themes is a scene between creator and audience. the characters are tools, no more able to consent or not than a flogger. the people who need to "consent" are creator and audience.

23.09.2025 05:10 👍 57 🔁 29 💬 2 📌 1

hey leftists. you know ppl with aspd, npd, or bpd. you know ppl with psychosis. delusions. who struggle with addiction. & yanno what? we hear when you blame powerful ppl's evil actions on the disorders you decided they had. disorders that we share.

that's why we don't trust you enough to tell you.

30.09.2025 00:55 👍 76 🔁 30 💬 9 📌 3
A trope map for Fulgurite

t4t taboo relationship
Folk horror
Isolated cabin in the woods
Grief horror
ACAB
Storms & lightning
Complicated family dynamics
Weird (horny) dreams
Non-sequential storytelling
Uncle x nibling
Lichtenburg figure scars

The summer hikaru died x old gods of Appalachia

A trope map for Fulgurite t4t taboo relationship Folk horror Isolated cabin in the woods Grief horror ACAB Storms & lightning Complicated family dynamics Weird (horny) dreams Non-sequential storytelling Uncle x nibling Lichtenburg figure scars The summer hikaru died x old gods of Appalachia

How far are you willing to go for the ones you love?

Luce Sullivan makes his yearly trip up to the isolated cabin he and his brother Michael bought decades before. He’s alone, and drowning in grief, and prepares to spend the time drunk to avoid thinking about the accident five years ago that took his brother from him and drove Michael’s child away after they survived a lightning strike. Jasper hasn’t made an effort to contact him once in all the years since they left, and Luce is afraid he lost both of them to that storm.

To his surprise, Jasper shows up in the middle of the night out of the blue. At first, Luce is elated. Is this finally the reconciliation he’s been yearning for all these years? But things turn more sinister as Luce realizes that Jasper isn’t quite right. 

He grapples fear, isolation, and strange new feelings for Jasper, as a storm looms closer and closer, threatening a grand finale that neither of them are quite prepared for.

How far are you willing to go for the ones you love? Luce Sullivan makes his yearly trip up to the isolated cabin he and his brother Michael bought decades before. He’s alone, and drowning in grief, and prepares to spend the time drunk to avoid thinking about the accident five years ago that took his brother from him and drove Michael’s child away after they survived a lightning strike. Jasper hasn’t made an effort to contact him once in all the years since they left, and Luce is afraid he lost both of them to that storm. To his surprise, Jasper shows up in the middle of the night out of the blue. At first, Luce is elated. Is this finally the reconciliation he’s been yearning for all these years? But things turn more sinister as Luce realizes that Jasper isn’t quite right. He grapples fear, isolation, and strange new feelings for Jasper, as a storm looms closer and closer, threatening a grand finale that neither of them are quite prepared for.

So uh. Yeah. Got this done ✅️

Do you like remote cabin horror and feeling really bad? This is the book for you!

Out on payhip now and coming soon to smashwords instead of amazon (bc it's taboo, tread cautiously and check CWs!!!)

payhip.com/b/aAUSq

30.09.2025 15:53 👍 28 🔁 18 💬 1 📌 0

[Threaducation: NSFW Moderation & Personal Responsibility)

There's a lot of talk about Bsky's new TOS nonsense, which kicks in on October 15th, but most of the users here don't even KNOW they have moderation settings to avoid NSFW content they don't wanna see. That needs fixing RIGHT NOW!

1/6

24.09.2025 08:50 👍 296 🔁 182 💬 4 📌 15

Disney adults canceling subscriptions, vacations, etc really are making the Harry Potter adults that threw a fit over a $60 video game look like huge bitches

21.09.2025 16:50 👍 14863 🔁 4949 💬 57 📌 87

im grateful i started writing on paper again with everything digitally going to shit because you truly cant trust anything anymore

15.09.2025 21:16 👍 1 🔁 0 💬 0 📌 0

A lot of my followers and general sphere understands this but it's really important we recognize that even if we don't like some art for personal moral reasons, we need to defend its right to exist. We went from no rape to no cat ears in less than two months. Everyone who warned about this was right

15.09.2025 19:45 👍 4637 🔁 2221 💬 6 📌 20
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Chat Control: The list of countries opposing the law grows, but support remains strong Germany and Luxembourg joined the opposition on the eve of the crucial September 12 meeting

According to Danish news today they Will be scanning both text and images, and they'll be scanning your emails

But the list of opposing countries are growing so please, please take the time to contact your representatives. Protest IS working

#Chatcontrol

15.09.2025 10:18 👍 637 🔁 652 💬 3 📌 11