@dt

is a hotdog a sandwich
bitch water is technically a soup

god them embarassing emails i have sent talena atfried

idk man at this point be chill to eachother

vibe out

bill s logan or whatever

let snyder direct that one and fuck it up even he cant because no one can its too stupid already thats why hes perfect anyways fuck gotta go bass in a sec

so yeah that i think just comes first before you learn to dynamically and ethnographically differentiate those specific sound patterns and intonalities to create more complicated packets of instructional emotion, ie, a spoken language that isn't just scary noise vs happy noise v hippo noise

no one let me think im inventing linguistics here just please put me out of my fucking misery oh shit we're almost at the MCR time is nigh

so if all our ears functionally hear roughly the same thing when struck by a pitch that registers e a b d g whatever blah blah and if we likely heard them from similar geographical sources like similar predators or environmental means you kind of build a sensory bank based on the emotion of noise

the idea that at least in a region of relatively biologically similar specimens that any particular musical note might be associated with an associated sense memory dependent on the circumstances the sound was first stored into the internalized matrix of nice and mean things right

but it's not *really* magic, right. like. our ears evolved to hear lots of stuff. predators, environmental changes, etc. if the structure of our ear had evolved differently we'd hear like bats or like moles or whatever just made sense right

so i think, idk maybe it's me, but i seem to recall it being kindof accepted that we are documentent to have made things that resemble musical tools before we have discovered much existence for the written word, right, like... they aint spelling they abcs in indonesian caves

but right. so,

to spontaneously create a brand new thing at the same time someone else does? what else do you call that but divine intervention? and to have it happen in front of you, because of you, then glory halleleujah we can communicate now somehow

i guess, idk, music is very interesting and i like it when it's weird and long thats what she said oh wow. antigone. that's unfortunate that we've done that. anyhow.

what a strange show this is turning out to be, this wooden overcoat of existence indeed

a man in a suit and tie is saying boom while sitting on a stage . ALT: a man in a suit and tie is saying boom while sitting on a stage .

that one is also @catpaccino.bsky.social

wait what the fuck was i even sayin this shit is all fucked because of theese chips and we're already into the placebo phase we dont havew much time these chips almost out this is a weird way to measure time its like an hourglass but its not sand into more sand its chips into my tummy

this is a puppy girl household we have rules here you sexy weirdoes

cool your jets, kitty cats and dolls

that's my perrogative, i guess

and i dont even care i spelled that wrong little red line suck my dick

my thoughts about avril lavigne however (big sister, dream, whichever really) are far more clear but i digress at least now i know the playlist to put on when miss twain is done anyways

oh my god i would have had the most EMBARASSING shania twain phase if i had been born differently she probably would have awakened something if i hadn't found it embarassing and kinda dumb at the time my goodness

ok this bitch has one (1) (one) lil tuppy (tuppy) of chips to get this done with because they have a date with a bass guitar to make let's go girl cue the shania

And idk Sesame Street told me that if someone feels safe and like a friend then you can trust them so you can be honest which is why that's all I ever am but I get the feeeeeeeeling that's why I overshare and nobody likes me right lol oops

I need to do this off the toilet brb

I believe you to be kind, those that have not, uh, forsaken me I guess because, well, you never forsook me or whatever when lots of people did. Most of them, in fact. So I gotta trust SOMEONE and if you can't trust a friend with something then what's the point of having it yourself? That's Nihil♎

And again I understand how this must sound like smugness because it probably does, even I can smell it, but all I'm doing is trying in good faith to communicate how inside me feels to someone outside of me through paying attention and believing you to be kind

And I do not, again, mean this as an accusation I mean this as a question because based on how I understand meanings through arts and languages and stuff like it seems it would have to either be a scream of terror or a dull bland but blessed rumble that you get the jist in like 7+ minimum

So in our micropop made for 27 second tiktoks but really just the first ~7.8 depending on the algo timeframe like what do you have to tell me that is so pointed or so flat as to NEED to be told in seven point seven seconds or might as WELL be said in less than eight because it sucks so who cares

So yeah if I wrote a song, if I made art as music well I make art to tell stories and as you are all painfully aware when I start something it does not end soon™️
so if course I love King gizzard and the goddamn lizard wizard dripping Tap ISN'T long enough you're right please continue as you see fit

Oh right all of that to say its because I'm an asshole who can't say anything in less than 7000 words or at least 17 skeets minimum

at least that's how my brain thinks but i am extremely autistic and have to go walk my dog bye bye send all honourary doctorates to blah blah blah