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it's the little moments

jude paw makeout session followed by falling asleep

i would give anything for a second chance

feelin it again. back pain id keeping me awake and also tanking my self esteem!!! ugly old man with ugly broken body

choker, but the choker gets snapped!!!

it's not healthy to place an outsize amount of importance on aesthetic beauty. but also, that's something ugly people say. it's exhausting to feel unattractive. no way to therapy-speak, self-affirm or body positivity your way around that shit!!!

i feel so ugly lately

man

he loves looking in his partner's eyes the moment he enters them. the widening pupils, the subtle, soft gasp...

anyway. jp holding his partner up and fucking them against the wall so he doesn't have to break eye contact

keep calling, i guess. never stop doing what you can. but it's kind of exhausting that it never works. like, in my entire lifetime, the political system has never worked the way it's supposed to. just an endless downward trend while boomer liberals tell me "the ship of state takes time to turn"

does anyone else get tired of the endless loop of "Senator Bloodquaff has proposed the Billionaire Child Murder Exemption Bill" -> call your senators! -> everyone calls their senators -> "The Billionaire Child Murder Exemption Bill has passed with bipartisan support"

that's the problem, though, he doesn't think of them as mistresses- he thinks he's genuinely in love

he catches feelings fast and strong, our boy does

jp is, unfortunately, the type to say "i love you" while nutting

heart shaped nipples might be ridiculous hentai bs that makes no sense. i do not care, i still love them. and they're still going in my damn mouf

anyway,

oh my GOD THIS IS SO GOOD. the SQUISH. the strand of hair coming down in front of his face!!!! THE DETAILS!!!! IM INSANE OVER THIS

just the right height to help out a friend...

ft. one judith paw @glazedhams.bsky.social

jude paw holding your ankles with grip like iron, spreading your legs with an effortlessness that's a little frightening

jude paw rough fingering

looks at self in the mirror. looks at my graying temples. looks at the deepening lines on my face. you're getting old, dude. you're aging gracefully, but my god are you aging

the good thing about living in a collapsing empire is that you don't really feel bad about your progress in life, because everything has been revealed to be fake. the bad thing is that you still have to make a living, and you're only getting older

thought about the fact that i'm turning 35 this month and had a little bit of anxiousness

why can't people be normal

sometimes i enjoy indulging in jp's sexuality, sometimes i want to torture him to death and have his chassis disassembled just to spite everyone who's ever viewed him as a sex object for either their own personal gratification, or as a vector to get weird toward me OOC

talking sucks. talking sucks!!! you just gotta say shit PHYSICALLY? with your MOUTH? with INTONATION and EYE CONTACT and DICTION and all those other things that CAN and DO fail you, when all you want is to be understood???? stupid!!! stupid system!!! i do not like it!!!

yapping to the void doesn't really help, either. but it's easier to get my feelings out in writing. always has been. another reason therapy doesn't appeal to me, i really don't like to talk. talking to other people is too hard. takes every bit of focus i have to sound acceptable. too much work.

this is why i want to try gummies. they're not any more permanent a solution than therapy or antidepressants, but at least they're priced accordingly. they charge you a suitable amount for being zonked for a few hours, that's a reasonable accounting

considered looking into therapy again, or at least upping the dose on my antidepressants, but deep down, i know that these are issues you can't talk your way out of, or medicate away. i would resent the attempt, because it would be so obvious that it's just coping. EXPENSIVE coping.