wellll responndd iffff yoourrr innterestedd innn wattchinngg innn 24-ish hoourss!!!!
@languagedebt
feline internet explorer, computer things are my passion!! autism (adhd/ocd diagnosis potentially in the future) she/it/they cat discord is the same username!! (dms open!) inside for ~2 years and counting vent potential
wellll responndd iffff yoourrr innterestedd innn wattchinngg innn 24-ish hoourss!!!!
NEVVERRMINDDD ITSS INNN 24 HOOURSSS MISSREAADD!!!
6 hoouurss iifff yoouuu waannaa wattchhhh hlvraaii2!!!!!
riiighhtt ottherss inn theee timezzonnee areee justt wakinngg upp!!! i'lll beee bacckkkkk innn 2 hoourss!!!
8 hoourss!!!! iifff yoouu wannaa wattchhhh hlvraii2 dmmm meee!!!!
diinnggg hiii!!!!!
dooess annybodyyy wannnaa wattchhh hlvrai2 innn 11 houurss?!?!? ii knnooww likeelyyy nobodyyy iss readinngg myy accounttt buutt itt'dd bee funnn ifff yoouurr sillyy anndd compassionnatte!!!!
mmo mythosss improvvv collaborattivee writtingg sessionn,,,, girlss imaginingg crreepypastaa,,,
theree iss aa lackkkkk offf girllss onnn myy youutubbee feeddd it'ss verry mascc,,,
identtityyy melttingg issss moreee scarrryy thennn turnninggg innttoo aaa funnnn creaaatureee,,,
iii feelll likeee sommethingg abbouutt turnningg inttoo aaa hummann fromm aaa monstterrr inn thhee traddemarrkkkk sennsorryyy menttall stylle woulldd bee aaa scarrryy comiccc,,,,
thereesss annn altternattee evilll verssionn off meee thattt reppliess tooo anythingg mascc aaa certaainn wayyy,,, it'ss nottt anyoness faulltt theyy makee artt withouutt wommenn sooo i donntt annd preventt myy ocdd,,,
uuhhhhh,,,, catt buss???!?!? yoouurr allreaddyyy aa cattt buuttt biggerr cattss aree betterr!!!! (/ref?!?!? myy godddd iii haveentt useedd taggss inn soo longgg,,)
theee ideaaa offf sooo muchh intternetttt dataaa anndd inforrmationn beinngg unnobtainabllee puttsss pressurree onnn insidde meee,,, thisss'ddd likeelyyy beee sollvedd byy beingg arounndd ottherss anddd gettinggg tooo dooo morreee normmalll stuffff!!!
(lassttt lasstt thinggg,,, "smoking" isss likeee thattt tooo meee becaussee theyy crowwdd myy visionn anndd channgee myyy menntall stattee becaussee i'mm senssitivvee,,, soorrryy forr alll offf thiss ii talkkedd aaa lott aggainn!!!)
(lasstt thinggg!!!!! itt'sss aaa thinggg offff kinndaa "smoking"-typpee habbitss to mmeee,,, negattivee videeoss havee becommee aa bitt likee thattt recentllyy,,,)
(NNEEEEDDDD tooo stooppp wattchinngg videeoo essaysss ouutt offf boreddomm,,, ittss aaa receenttt traittt thatts maddee thiss lattchh onnn morreee,,,)
(immdbb meaanninngg gennerallll negativittyy revieww stufff ettcc ittss verryy closeelyy linkedd withh triggerrinngg/inntrusivee thoughttss/masccnesss/nonn-lovvee/etccc forrr meee,,,)
wiithh meee maturrityy asss mannyy arrounndd meee haavee beeen hassntt beenn equall tooo lovvee whiichh iss sommethinngg thaattt hurrtss soooo i'vvee noott beeenn draawwnn toooo ittt asss myyy braainnn lettss masscc winnn morree mattureee traaittss haaveee beenn sommethingg ii seeee asss imdbbb,,,
thiiss isss kinndaa flippeddd onn itt'ss headdd wiithh mee andd ocddd,,, iii 100% haaaveee thaattt ranndomm "ohhh riightt!!!" thinggg assss yoouu descrribbee buutt itt'ss differenttt becaausee thereess aaann annttii-meeee innnn myyy headdd,,,
hoppeefullyyy i'vvee grownnn intooo ittt evennn ifff ittt wass onnceee "just ocd",,,
"it could all be ocd" isss aaa pottentialll reallityyy buutt nobodyy hass aa "your real for a certain reason" deciderr,,
speeddrunnn toooo whattt myyy braainnn connsiderrss (nirvanaa nottt the bandd theee conceptt),,,
thhiiss isss silllyy buuuttt iii probabblyy needddd tooo gett sommeee compassiionn onn thiisss subbjjecctt likkkeee mannnyy sommetimee,,,
"WOAH that's a new time for the pronouns split, now she's (heh!!!) going to hit the discord server annnddddd.. OOH, OW! wrong vibe! she's going to spend a few weeks there and mentally not do the beesstt buutt noowwww she's WOW!!! THAT IS A NEW TIME FOR THE FINDING A SEMi-SOLID COMMUNITY SPLIT!!!",,,
iifff yoouuu wwereee tooo llooookk attt ittt cynnicallyyy,,, myyy idenntityy coouulldd bbeee ocdd'ss speedrrunn setuupp,,,
shooutttoutt forrr likinggg iii sawww youuu!!!!!
jussttt lookeddd uppp sommethinggg arounndd thatt onnn bluesskyy anndd sommeonnee waiitedd unnttilll goinngg toooo aaa conn inn thee sammee wayyy,,, interrestingg!!!!
likeee,,, iii couulddd suddenllyy beee betterrr,,, iii cannn finndd whooo i wanttt,,, i'mm alloweddd,, buttt nonnee off thoosee thinngss aree truuee yettt isss sooo oddddd,,,, futurreee meee getttss thoosee adjectivvess,,,
itt'sss sooo oddd,,, itt'ss likee wakingg uppp afterr aaannn issolattionn commaa anndd noboddyy arounndd youu knowwingg whatt youu wanntt andd onlyy "just knowing" yoouu haavee tooo waitt yearss,,, justtt a bittt tooo gooo feeelss unrealll,,