Hannibal Lecter's Feline Tendencies

(Not in a, "I want to be bony" way

Just in an almost morbid, "ooooh bones" way lmao)

Also when I lay down I can feel my ribs more

Which is totally normal even as a fat person

But I just feel like I notice them more

My hip bones as well

And I kind of like it, in a weird sort of way, the feel of my bones lmao

But it's weird seeing it get smaller

And like, I'm still very much clearly fat (I don't foresee that ever changing lmao)

But the fat is a different shape and feel sometimes

Bodies are weird

CW: weight loss mention

I think my body is changing shape

Which I mean, I guess makes sense, I've lost like 60lbs

But I've barely been able to notice any difference up until now, so it's kind of strange

I can already tell I will have an "apron belly", which doesn't bother me

Chiitan wants me to have artwork of Hannibal Lecter petting me like a cat

In so much pain I can hardly move and I want to cry

I need this to calm down before London

I need to be able to walk and function and just be at least like 40% of a functioning human being

Then I can go back to being broken

Just let me have this one thing

Maybe next month I'll cave and c*mm some selfship art just to try and feel a little better about myself

But then I think that and my brain is just immediately flooded with negative self-hatred and the thought that no one would want to draw that, even for money

Cool thanks brain

Kitten and senior cat both on my lap whilst I sit in bed

They've both been glued to me all day

Which is very sweet

But oh god my legs

She's a purring machine

Tuxedo kitten curled up under bedding

Tuxedo kitten curled up under bedding

She has not stopped purring

Bedding that is red and white gingham on one side, then on the other side an off pink colour with strawberry plants including leaves and flowers

Tuxedo kitten exploring the bedding

Tuxedo kitten exploring the bedding

Tuxedo kitten tucked under the bedding

Asda/George stay winning with cute, cheap bedding

Mischa is very thoroughly doing a quality insurance check for me

Occasionally he'll move in a way where one of his feet literally looks paralyzed and it's incredibly heartbreaking

He's going to get those Solensia injections one way or another, I don't care if I have to go without

Having to watch Honey struggle without the painkillers is really, really upsetting

He's still managing to do everything fine (currently in the window bed which he climbed into fine), but it makes me realise how much they were helping, because he's dragging his feet a lot more

The downside to this is that to get there, he can't have any painkillers, so his legs will suffer.

I'm still waiting for that email from the vet re: the Solensia injection.

Great TMI news on the Honey's tummy front:

He only pooped once during the night, on the chaise longue, and it was pretty solid (much more like his normal.)

As opposed to yesterday which was poopocalypse.

So great steps towards getting him back to normal.

I have been in so much pain all day, but now it's 12:30AM and I am finally letting myself get into bed properly for sleep

Night night, lovelies

🤞 May there be less cat poop tomorrow 🤞

I am starting to get full body shivery pains and aches

That's not good

I have to travel to London in 10 days 😭 I can't afford to get sick

Good: It's probably just stress

Bad: Stress sickness is as physically bad as normal sickness, but can last even longer

I'm very stressed and in pain and just can't stop worrying about Honey

But I played some Pokopia (it's WONDERFUL)

And enough throws are now clean and dry that the furniture is protected whilst the cat beds are in the washing machine

And Honey is curled up on my bed being chill

I can definitely tell that Honey is struggling more with his legs without his daily painkiller dose, and it makes me feel so bad.

But we need to see if that's what is causing his tummy upset. 😞

No email from the vet yet on Solensia injection info.

Kitten in my lap whilst I'm in bed, with The Pitt playing on a tablet, and a plate with a pretzel on it

Let's watch The Pitt with papa

*if you're like, affluent and not marginalised

An extremely kind person sent me £10 to go towards Pokopia, so I caved and got it 🥲

I will likely spend the day in bed playing it as I can hardly move from cleaning the house and the cat

If anyone else wants to make it any cheaper, my Kofi is in my bio lmao*

🙏 someone please just take me out back and shoot me I am struggling thank you 🙏

I am very tired

Resisting the urge to buy Pokopia to try and cheer myself up

I'm gonna go buy some pastries and try to catch my breath

All of the throws and beds are lined up to go in the wash, it's going to take at least two days to get everything cleaned and dried (and the drying function on my machine keeps breaking)

I had to take Honey into the shower to wash him because his feet and tail were just caked in it

I was wrong, I was so very wrong, I had only glanced in the living room when I posted that

It was on every throw, every cat bed, every piece of furniture

I've had to scrub the cat stairs and perches with an upholstery cleaner, scrub the floors...

So much poop to clean up today. Honey managed to do it on only one piece of furniture at least, but it's covered, and he also needs cleaning.

But no Onsior today so hopefully 🤞🤞🤞 that means his tummy will start to settle and then I'll know for sure if that was the cause.

d’Artagnan (Hugh Dancy from young blades) #HEU #hannibal (?)

Tena Proskin Comfort incontinence pads

Attends Regular incontinence pads

Siempre incontinence pads

Morrisons men's protective pads for bladder weakness

Thinking about Hannibal Lecter

Just... How do you fuck up someone's name that much