Safics | Gay for Petrine 🔞

Sometimes the uncontrollable muscle spasms or outright seizures get so bad they damage the things they’re attached to or pulling on. The left side of my jaw is unfortunately a frequent victim. 😔

I’m really sorry to harp on the “why is my body like this” train again but two bones that are part of separate joints literally just… damaged themselves in two days, like one yesterday and then one today when I woke up.

I just want to work but this second one especially REALLY fucking hurts… :(

I am ROCKING IT, one of my friends screamed like she saw a celebrity when I showed her and Im still riding that high!

I’m visiting family for my Grandfather’s 90th birthday and struggling really hard to hide how much I’ve deteriorated so I won’t bring down the mood and make his birthday about me.

Honestly deciding on a whim to get the Sailor Uranus haircut definitely has helped as a distraction.

Ugh, I was finally starting to be able to get some work down and then my doctors took seven vials of blood and left me so much more anemic than usual. 😭

Also well I’m here, I know I’m late but Overwatch devs absolutely knew what they were doing when they named their answer to Emma Frost “Domina“.

Kinda being able to feel a seizure coming like migraine aura or my joints before it rains is honestly pretty useful to be careful to limit time outside of bed, I just wish it was a bit more precise and less of a “sometime in the next day or two” vibe based situation.

Happy Valentines everyone, I’m really sorry there’s no special event fic this year. I really need to focus all my very limited energy on my Patreon backlog.

Lmao.

Most characters I write love this.

My audience definitely finds Five the most attractive, though I think Claire might edge her out when something with her eventually releases.

I can’t say Safi would be against it because of my feelings on Kronya…

Well that’s comically well timed.

My ability to speak deteriorated a good bit since the seizure, and it was already getting spottier from motor control issues, but despite everything my mother still understands every word I say.

That’s a fucking superpower right there.

I’m purposefully not plugging my Patron since I’m still catching up on stuff over there, but the monthly check came at a really good time to shore me up a but so I just want to give a thank you to my followers. 🖤

I had a pretty bad series of non-epileptiform seizures last night a few hours after getting a brain mri, and spent most of today in the hospital because of it. Healthcare is so fucking expensive, even with insurance.

I don’t foresee much writing progress for a bit. :(

Besides being given the wrong address the mri went alright, at least until I was supposed to stand up afterwards. 💀

I almost needed a second one after that…

Brain mri and some other personal stuff tomorrow, hoping to work more on wednesday.

Playing Nightreign with people who jerk off to me is not the way I expected to end this rest day but I had a good time. This too is self care.

I do think it’s really funny that since people usually assume I’m older than I am, me going “I’m watching nostalgic videos from 2012” kinda dates me as being on the younger side.

I also watched a healthy amount of Malcolm in the Middle clips and realized just how foundational Francis’ wife Piama was to my taste in women.

Fortune’s Weave is almost certainly not going to be my thing, but I’ll probably still write a mommy Sothis foot fetish fic at some point because I have needs.

Today I’m self medicating with the most powerful drug of all, nostalgia.

Depressive episodes don’t have shit on watching vintage Stampy reuploads with the polycule.

From what I understand a lot of the hate is due to the advertising kind of lying, and if you go in expecting a FE Persona crossover its pretty gun!

sumidelia and a surprise(?) severa repeating history
#dlarts #fireemblem

Also I’m really sorry to the person who requested a wholesome little sfw story, Ive been saving it for last so I could have a break from the more extreme stuff 😭

Fic up, I think only two Kinktober fics are left now! This one ran a bit long and even has a bonus scene in the ending notes. If this gets a chapter two at some point it will involve short hair Lucina in a dress because I have needs.

It is also a LOT, so please be wary of the tags!

I need you all to know that I got into a room after an hour and fifteen minutes, and the doctor still has not seen me a half hour later. :(

I love how I was so worried about being late only for the doctor to be late by forty minutes and counting.

My dumb ass wrote this before realizing I have Tuesday morning and night booked, Wednesday morning booked, and Thursday morning booked. My bad 😭