Lore Wilson 🍉🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🏴🇮🇪🪶

when my time comes i do not want to be resuscitated. just let me go so i can be free.

sorry i had just assumed joss whedon would not be involved in the firefly reunion thing, if they're bringing him back i'm already out, i would have less issue with adam baldwin being involved than joss whedon

i just wish i knew where to find the hard reset button.

Adam Carolla should have to give one of his priceless datsun race cars to each and every trans autojourno in the world in his divorce also

drinking with sleep deprivation was probably a bad idea

good night? 🙃

either something needs to change in my life or i do just to keep going.

i’m tired in a lot of ways and i’m out of patience

like seriously though if i can’t make my career work and i have to live with so much heartache and not enough love… i don’t really know what the point is of living anymore. i think maybe i have finally actually lost faith. there is no superman or happy ending. just more of this. why keep suffering.

there’s no one coming to save me. the way being unhoused effects my lifespan, i’m probably not even gonna make it to forty. nothing is going to get better. this is just the world we live in.

i’ll probably feel better tomorrow.

goodnight. i kinda hope i don‘t wake up. this world is miserable and lonely and i just want to be free of it.

i don’t want all i accomplished on this earth to be my own heartbreak and misery

fuck it at least i’ve lived long enough to learn how to love myself

i’m gonna die alone and unloved

oh hey. prince of tides was also my dad’s favorite book. he loves pat conroy.

i think the studio is empty now. i can probably sleep. i just need to finish the saison and then i‘m gonna do that.

what if i just had a total personality change, went bombshell blond, stated wearing scoop necklines and mascara and lipstick and got my nails done every other week annnnd basically just became my mother. sure, i would hate myself because that‘s not me but then i can maybe get a bed and a roof.

i don‘t have nice enough tits for that get out of jail free card let’s be real honest here.

who do i have to sleep with to not go back to the shelter. i can be real fucking cute when i want to be and i can cut sugar out of my diet again. or maybe i can dom. Pose made domming seem fun. i just don’t want to go back to the hellhole. i would rather get into sex work than go back to the shelter

yeah no fuck it i‘m relieved i‘m not going back there tonight

Boosting sitting at $0

yea fuck it give me the fourth written warning. i don’t want to be there anyways. what do i care if i get excluded. criminalize me daddy.

update: it’s not a cider it’s a blackberry “saison” whatever that is but my guess by taste is that it’s wine? 🍷 🧐

oh hey! welcome back! hoooooow was chicago?

Iran: cool we'll just use the fuel ourselves

Everyone:

she’s probably fine and i’m just being silly and worrying when folks aren’t always as extremely online as i am.

ted lasso is good

if she doesn’t post or reply by tomorrow morning i’m gonna be a rude friend and go over there without an invite or confirmation whether or not it’s a good time just to get confirmation she’s ok.

maybe she also lost her laptop? i don’t know why she would take that with her to apply for a job but i don’t know.
she’s been drowsy because her meds can knock her out though and could also just be sleeping. or she’s been out all day. she doesn’t drive so i‘m not worried there…