Everything that has happened is no one's fault but my own.
And honestly, I don't really have an answer for where to go from here.
09.03.2026 00:11
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Everything that has happened is no one's fault but my own.
And honestly, I don't really have an answer for where to go from here.
There might be a stream this week. There might not. Honestly, I have no clue.
I think overall I just need some time to myself to let everything sink in and sulk in everything I've done.
So.
Normally, Sunday evening is when I do my whole "here's the schedule for next week!" post.
But to be honest, there isn't one.
I've caused enough trouble for people I care about and made a bad enough name for myself for a while, so I'm going to step out of the spotlight for at least a few days.
I'm sorry to everyone for how stream as a whole went today.
You all deserve better than the behavior that was shown by me today.
I'll be honest, I don't really know what to do or where to go from here...
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It's @prismaticmotorsports.com Road to a Cause at COTA, with Jordan!
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We're running the Proto/GT vTuber Invasion! And maybe some other stuff idk we'll figure it out.
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I DIDN'T MAKE A GRAPHIC BECAUSE I DIDN'T PLAN THIS
BUT HI I'M LIVE RIGHT NOW
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(I don't know what any of it is)
nooooo not Horsecock 😭
@iracing.com will be coming down for deployment of 2026 Season 2 Initial Release, Tuesday, March 10th, beginning at 08:00 am EDT/12:00 GMT
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An update:
And secondly, a *slight* update to tonight's stream plans.
I'm gonna run two Indy Lights(fuck calling it the other name) races to start the stream!
I'll be running the first timeslot of the week, followed by the broadcast slot.
Then we'll do a bit of Minecraft afterwards!
I am perfectly fine now, it passed fully about an hour or so after I ended stream.
I have therapy again Wednesday, so hopefully I can begin to unpack what exactly caused it, because I'm not normally someone that just has an anxiety attack with no known reason.
An update on a few things:
First off, I do apologize for the abrupt end to Railroader Sunday yesterday, I was fully intending on doing a full day of gameplay on stream.
To be open with it, I had a random anxiety attack that was pretty bad compared to usual, so I had to cut stream short.
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It's everyone's favorite tradition, it's Railroader Sunday!
With the ever growing traffic demand on our line, we are always looking for some more motive power that can handle it.
And well, a brand new released mod might just be the answer...
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Here's next week's schedule!
A lighter week as we've got 6 Hours at COTA on Sunday and I want to prepare for that. But the week after that is iRacing build week, so we'll make up for it!
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As voted on by the fans in the community Discord, we're checking out the newest Assetto Corsa Rally update this afternoon!
Two news cars, and a laser scanned Monte Carlo, let's see what this update has to offer for the already impressive sim!
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This shit rules.
Anyone who thinks NASCAR shouldn't do street races is wrong.
WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING
Stock cars on street courses: absolutely cool as fuck. More of it.
"Is St. Petersburg in New Orleans?" - @snoolbrunch.bsky.social
We are 3 minutes into the broadcast and Michael Waltrip called Townsend Bell "Tansend".
I don't really have a time, but it'll be sometime in the early afternoon(around like 2EST or so).
The people have spoken!
We'll be checking out the newest Assetto Corsa Rally update!
It'll be a fun time of me learning how to Monte Carlo, as well as checking out the two newest additions to the car roster on the sim!
10/10 would hire
I'm definitely feeling the need for a break from more competitive racing, so I'm gonna be pulling out of this weekends Vtracc round.
There will be a vote in the community Discord for what to do on Saturday, so join there if you want to have a say!
*sigh*
I had alright enough pace, but made one mistake that put me head on into the wall giving me damage that effected the race of my race, which seems to be the story of my races lately. Definitely a little disappointed in myself.
It was fun seeing some familiar faces on track though!
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We're turning left and right, but in a stock car?
The NASCAR iRacing Series is at a road course this week, so I'm gonna bring out the ol' dragon once again and see where I stack up!
Joining me once again from the spotters stand is the lovely ChukioTan!
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Ride The Deente
Well, that was a lot of fun!
We did some mining, and got a little starter house made!
We'll definitely continue on with this world in the coming weeks, everyone seemed to have a fun time.