Rosie ✨

Day 12: almost 2 weeks done!! I'm feeling more calm which is nice and I'm planning to go back to my home on Friday if all goes well ✨

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Day 9: Gaming brings such joy, it's interesting how some people might feel it's not beneficial but it's a different way to connect to community. That's how I felt today, just pure joy of reaching some friends and playing games ☺️

Day 8: Came and went. Did feel tension and dizziness today. I have it mentally rougher in the evenings, like I wish I was those people who could just close eyes and sleep. That would be the best! Maybe one day? ☀️

Day 7: Besides some light sadness, small lack of spacial awareness and dizziness. Today has been a pretty decent day. Still hyped I've made it a week already!

A closeup image of a young Jodie Foster smiling with a text underneath [gay silence]

I also want to share good memes I have collected over the years, have one:

a person is petting a stuffed gizmo in a red toolbox . Alt: A person is petting gizmo from gremlins in a red toolbox and gizmo is smiling and content.

Day 7: I've made it to day 7 aka first week down. The first weeks are the toughest with SSRIs so this means I'm kinda sorta half way through! And that's something to be proud of ☺️ I still feel like shit-ish but we move forward.

Oh yes! It's been lovely - except classic add to complain: the dust from the gravel has been annoying!

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Day 6: I understand now that I have a hard time naming emotions. I think my ego has not allowed me to understand this before because I work in welfare. I am now gonna work on using an emotions wheel to learn to name my feelings in more nuance. We learn💕

Day 6: Feeling more stable today. It's nice to essentially have a breather from the medication side effects. Taking it slow though and enjoying the sunny day.... From inside.. while watching YouTube ☀️

Day 5: This has been the most successful day so far in the past few weeks. I am exhausted however change does not happen in a day ✨

Day 5: I notice that all I do when I'm out doing something is obsessively monitor my anxiety. It takes time to learn to redirect those thoughts but now we are seeing my bestie and her baby and I feel great 💕

Image of the spa logo. Wine red wall with in big lettering Korean Beauty Spa.

For those in #finland and who go to or live in #helsinki - shout-out to the Korean Beauty Spa in Herttoniemi. They are really lovely and the vibes are chill! You can find them at koreanbeautyspa.fi ✨

Thank you!!!

Day 5: I'm out and about today with the mother. Ofc I have anxiety, I notice I'm very much in a "oh no no" mentality because I'm so used to not feeling well when I'm out in public. But I feel this is my mind more than body with anxiety today.

Day 4: Okay nvm, I was not ready yet - had a massive cry before leaving so time to just take it slow ☺️ Needing to remember to stay kind towards myself on the road to recovery.

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Day 4: About to go for lunch in public!! 😱 Going with the mother so I'm not alone. Currently have some disorientation and cold sweats but that's okay, we're gonna try to enjoy this!

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Oh hi! I'm here to yell into the internet void about all things I like but also; I want to document my mental health as I have gone up in my dose of ✨ escitalopram✨ and felt like I wanted to share my journey. I'm on day 4 of 15mg and it's been a physical doozie so far!