@starblazertv
They/Them, Neurodivergent filmmaker. Working on creative projects, including videos, animations, screenplays, comics, and more. Refuge of the platform formerly known as Twitter. https://linktr.ee/starblazertv
I've purchased my ticket and will be attending the BCON Blender Conference in Austin this April. Hoping to meet with fellow users, share some art, and learn new things! #blender
A YouTube psych I like is doing just that, starting his watch-along and analysis of the series. Check it out.
youtu.be/nDR-wd0cssw?...
Deeply afraid of making my own animated webseries because the thought of potentially being harassed by viewers gives me anxiety. Feel bad for Gooseworx, she doesn't deserve this.
Iron Lung was fucking good.
Annoyed that YouTube has seemingly gotten rid of the List view mode for subscriptions on desktop. All the videos are stuck in a Grid view now, and I'm not a fan of it.
Wish I could wear skirts and dresses every day without the fear of being judged.
It might take a while for me to work up the courage to come out to my family in the new year. Not knowing how they'll react is the most nerve-wracking part of it all.
Good.
This person is either a troll or never evolved past the spadinner era of YTP. Both are equally sad.
Is it even possible to get HRT if you're not employed? How expensive is it without insurance? Job market is so horrendous, I'm getting close to two years without work, and I barely have enough savings to continue college, let alone start a transition.
I laughed for two minutes and choked on a cookie when this happened, thanks Vinny.
Finally understanding my identity and not being able to do a thing about it is eating me up inside.
I'm not sure if I'll ever transition. If I wasn't in a red state and had a job with a good income and insurance and if I didn't have to worry about being oppressed by our current political regime, maybe I could do it.
Love using Obsidian, very helpful for keeping track of worldbuilding and character arcs for my stories, like having your own personal wiki. Check out the plug-ins to get even more use out of it.
I think if I really am transfem, only now realizing these repressed feelings after years of self-doubt and loathing, then I feel this time in history under our current regime was the worst possible time for me to figure this out about myself.
Trying to navigate this dysphoria, whether it's gender related or not IDK, has been anxiety inducing. It's always in the back of my mind now, messing with my self-image and sense of identity. How long will this last before I know for sure that I wasn't supposed to be born this way?
And since journals/diaries are offline, they're free from the corrupting influence of GenAI and fascist government censorship. Physical media is the key to protecting our history for future generations.
It's a piece of me that's tangible and exists in the real world, and no matter how bad technology gets, AI can't take it away from me. It is real.
In this chaotic time we're living in, writing in it at the end of each day has been therapeutic, helping me process my trauma and recent dysphoric feelings, and this confusing world.
I've started to keep a physical diary again, one I used for a month in 2021 before forgetting about it. I kept a couple diaries as a kid, never finished them cause of ADHD. This one I'm going to finish.
cinema_nasties 1d Al defenders are so embarrassing j.paulmonter 2h All you are saying is that you want to gatekeep creativity. That's not good. drachelbarr & 20h • •• Neuroscientist here... creativity is a process. A process. A FUCKING PROCESS. Not an output. Nobody is gatekeeping the process - Al simply invites you to skip to the end, to the output. Which, as mentioned, is not creativity. Nobody cares if the output is aesthetically pleasing, because the process, the act itself, the limitation of a single human mind and the resulting creations that capture that one single inimitable human experience... is what makes a creation worth paying attention
Well put by @drrachelbarr.bsky.social
I wonder if I would've had a happier childhood and young adulthood if I'd been born a woman instead.
IDK if this is a phase that'll pass or if it's full-blown body/gender dysphoria. I'm already confused about other aspects of myself, and this is just exasperating the issue further.
I feel like I've had days where I'd be more "myself" if I wasn't male, like I'd be more comfortable in my body if I presented more feminine or something in between. These days used to be really rare, a couple times a year or more, but I've had these thoughts more frequently the past couple months.
I look forward to the day when this current fascist regime finally crumbles to dust. It can't come soon enough, and today really felt like a turning point towards its inevitable downfall. Fingers crossed.
I love that people are calling it the GabeCube, this made my day.
Finally, some good news.
Planet Of The Vampires, They Live, and Jacob's Ladder are the ones I recognize, all are great.
youtu.be/bXVQLuqko-M
VFX reel of the Slit Scan effect, accurately recreated using Blender's Cycles engine. #blender3d
Making art and worldbuilding stories with my sci-fi project OC's is one of the only things that brings me joy anymore. My 2d art might be bad, but I don't care. At least I'm trying.