That One Girl

Okay, successful night out out in a new dress and heels and makeup and PANTYHOSE ffs. 🙄
But I wasn’t uncomfortable, I think I walked more like Homo Sapien than Neanderthal, and I love the dress ☺️

☺️ I almost certainly won’t answer incoming calls because I’m not about to be caught off-guard by conversation I haven’t prepared for!

Why do I have so much trouble just making a phone call?! 🙄 I need to call this person back but I’m just sitting here with my phone in my hand and I can’t make myself push the call button.

…and of course little dog had a near-panic attack while first dog went back to bed.

Good news: it took about 45 minutes for anti-anxiety med to kick in and little dog is now sleeping peacefully.

Bad news: after managing dogs for 2 hours in the middle of the night, *I* am still awake.

Of course my weirdo dog woke me up to let her out so she can sit on the porch in a thunderstorm. ⛈️⚡️

End of Beginning

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Anyway - been thinking about this a lot recently. I think I don't actually "love" people but I fixate on them and/or feel a responsibility to take care of them and to make THEIR lives happy and successful.

I only share all this because I need to get it out of my skull space and hope it'll go away.

a socio- or psychopath. I don't think I'm a narcissist, but who tf knows. Sometimes I don't feel things, everything is unemotional, I look at EVERYTHING in a logical - albeit self-serving - light.

I take solace in the thought that crazy people don't KNOW they're crazy, their thoughts seem logical.

So what I've been thinking lately is whether or not I've ever actually been in love. Perhaps it is nothing more than an obsession that I never let go of, a fixation that lasted longer or felt deeper than others I'd had previously. I wonder if I'm capable of love. I honestly sometimes think I'm

a classmate, a coworker, an actor or celebrity, a online acquaintance - and I will need to learn absolutely EVERYTHING about them. I will CRAVE their attention, their praise, their inclusion and will learn all about the things they like so that I, too, can like them and we can be simpatico.

and they will learn everything and anything about the object of their fixation. A lot of ND women obsess over people: how they think, what they like, what they do. I believe this is why so many women love true crime.

I have done this for a very very VERY long time. I will come across a person -

Here's something I've been thinking about lately:

I believe I am neurodivergent (pretty sure I always have been but menopause is making it impossible to hide/ignore/mask any longer). One of my related traits is how I hyperfixate on people.

Some ND folks fixate on movies, sciences, collectibles

At least I moved to the sofa. Staying in bed all day would have signaled a problem that I’d have to face.

And I didn’t want to.

That’s the problem with depression: the #lethargy that blankets you steals your momentum, your ability even to care. It makes moving to the sofa feel like a win. #vss365

Got to see my boy while on a long weekend in Chicago

Hot dog flavored ice cream complete with mustard and relish at the Museum of Ice Cream

Gorgeous view of Chicago from the bow of the ship on the Chicago River

The iconic Untouchables stairs in Union Station - Chicago

Ready to head home after a terrific weekend in the Windy City

😩 Not wrong

Chicago, here we come! Rollin’ our way through the brown Iowa/Illinois countryside on a first-time @amtrak.com trip. Ate breakfast with some lovely strangers and now we’re holed up in our little roomette for the remainder of the trip (2.5 hours to go of a 7-hour ride) 😬 #traintravel

To be fair, I am a bit of a nightmare.

Was looking forward to a trip tomorrow until spouse started making passive-aggressive remarks about my anxiety-driven “quirks” 😕
Gonna be a long weekend.

Thanks!

Ooft

LANE 0 @lanechanged • 21h Oh, look. This dude found it. [photo of a lone car in a parking lot on the spot labeled “g”] Bluebird pooped an X O @bluebird... 2h @ •• I am willing to bet that car runs on batteries

I snickered heartily at this. 😅
I don’t think anyone got it (or found it funny) on the elsewhere I posted it

🫂

I was so prepared to hate it! I was fangirling over book 1 - have not read the 3rd book yet because 2 ended in such a way that I’m afraid to 😬

Bought a trail cam to capture wildlife (the camera is not the best, not at all user friendly) But I caught some nice video ☺️

A Scrabble-like game app showing several words crossing “piety” “fane” “home” and highlighted in green showing a score of 108 points the word “quash”

Yeahhh boi! New game Crosswords and I just hit it with a 108- point word!

It didn’t say the princess had to be good 😬😅

Satan @s8n If it's 1 or 1000 sins you're still getting sent to Hell. So why not go for 1,000,000 sins and come down here a legend God Yo what the fuck

Can’t argue the logic

If you see this post a princess.

[man 1] THIS CAR CAN SEAT 5 PEOPLE WITH NO PROBLEMS [man 2] I DONT EVEN KNOW 5 PEOPLE WITH NO PROBLEMS

😆 There’s something I didn’t know!