Not Xenogenesis

grow, my dear tree!

We Have Enough Dead Friends By Lena Oleanderson Come over. The doors are open, my flat's a mess and so is my heart but the doors are always open. Come over. I will make soup, probably from frozen but the important thing is we will both eat. You don't have to be dying, but if you are, or you feel like you are, or if living's been hard, call me, and I will show up. It doesn't have to be that bad, it doesn't have to be bad at all, but if it is, please call. Do you want me to do the groceries? Do you want me to mop the floors? Do you need to be held; you don't have to be dying to be held. If you want me to be there, I want to. I'm on the bathroom floor again, and breathing is hard, and eating's been hard, and sleeping, the world is a laden thing rolling around on my chest lately. Just being alive is heavy tonight, but we have enough dead friends. Come over.

I don't think I've come across a poem that taps into my ethos when it comes to navigating queer community within the context of a hostile world as much as "We Have Enough Dead Friends" by Lena Oleanderson.

I strive to make my home a sanctuary where other faggots feel safe and cared for.

my hp laptop has been begging for its life but i keep loading another vst

You wouldn't steal a brainrot

have any of yall been on any cool rabbit holes lately

word recommendation check out the word tatterdemalion thanks

California license plate with text "IMBUTCH".

Customer: BUTCH IS MY NICK NAME
DMV: B*tch

Verdict: DENIED

A tweet by @rogerclark that reads "typing is the secret to using the computer. if you're not typing, you should be clicking on stuff. if you're scrolling, then it's already over... you're not doing shit", printed on a laser printer and stuck to my bulletin board

words to live by

fluffy moonrock...

Sometimes I see someone else’s work (gamedev-wise) and it’s so good, and I’m just like. What the fuck am I doing. I should quit doing this shit, I’m no good. What the hell.

wait i literally didnt realize they posted about this im on this list somewhere i think

slow descent, spirits spent 🎶

🎇 ANNOUNCEMENT 🎇

i'm honored to announce that i have TWO SONGS launching with beatblock's early access! it's some of the most colorful and ambitious music i've ever written ♡

Destroy, Destroy (ft. @frenlize.bsky.social )
Era Chimæra (with @onefin.bsky.social , @honabai.bsky.social, hyquo)

somebody gave us hash lastnight in berlin i’ve never smoked it before. how do you smoke hash??? Google’s Gemini overview will not tell me

heartbreaking : your song isnt done after you spent 4 hours mixing four bars

i pledge allegiance to the Wag

[eating all the coins at an all you can eat bank] gotta get my money's worth

straight people would be a game changer for polyamory. but alas

topping isn't gay, except for sprinkles and olives

trader knows

in this world it's hear or she heard

fun fact ! there are actually more real numbers between 0 and 1 than atoms in the universe. this is because some infinities are bigger than other infinities

"the raison d'etre" shit cannot be that poetic

okay

good music tends to transcend genre

surely, april

stubs my toe "Yowie!!" (like boys ?! )

there is gore and body horror in this for what it is worth

been a hot minute since i've mediaposted. "To The End, With You" by Ruuwanmm (this is the first piece of bl manga i have ever read i think) is really nice! i quite like food symbolism as well as Death & Grief discussion and this did a nice job at both.

call be flat stanley the way i need to be maled