Kamira

Every day I'm reminded forcefully that the concept of western society being a meritocracy the way I'd been taught it was meant to be during my youth, is and always has been an absolute lie.

The world is owned and controlled by a small group of morons that apparently all "like em young".. Go figure.

Today's mood is apparently me sitting here, looking at work that should be done, and instead wondering what excuses could validate me being off work for the next week, despite being on my own at home for half of that time.

Just massively lacking motivation again u_u

My handsome boy/pet/chewtoy/partner and love looking better than ever!

Any accusations of me being responsible for the damaged fur due to chewing on him are greatly exaggerated.. Ignore the bit I said earlier..

Amazing work by @bearlyfeline.bsky.social and everyone should go give them a follow!

Don't get your colleagues and fellow travellers sick. Optics be what they are, you know it's the right choice to not go.

Youtube please, PLEASE, I am begging you.

When I click on 'Subscriptions' I only ever want to see my subscriptions, newest first, every, single, time.

Stop assuming you know what I want, wankers.

If it ain't broke, don't, fucking, fix it. FUCK.

Fweh.. Difficuly mood day..

Wanna be happy, but an unending sense of dread and anxiety around the near future is just hanging over me.

Got a bunch of tedious work to do then 3hrs of meetings after lunch, which along with the weight of what's feared, I just wanna avoid it all but can't.

The soul crushing reality that every day, life is made increasingly worse for the vast majority of us, by folks who are insanely unqualified, hold undeserving power and influence, and are insulated from their own BS.. And it always boils down to greed.

I hate this world so fucking much.

Damn my boy is so fucking hot..

Paint a single fingernail.
It's subtle, something most folks won't notice in passing, but it can help boost your feels, and has a very low cost of entry.

I went for a nice metallic blue in the end, it's masc enough that my genderfluid ass is never asked questions, but fem enough for me personally.

This is also a big driver, at least personally, for my imposter syndrome with work, and feeling undeserving of nice things in life generally.. But we learn to move forward, supported by those we find along the way.

100/100 - no notes.

Had this all my life, known it's part of my whole neurospicyness for a long time, finding it's part of adhd which I was diagnosed for last year is a nice link in the chain.

Counselor: These feelings of "everything sucks," how long have you had them? Butt-head: Uhh, since everything started to suck, I guess.

Here it is, your moment of zen.

“it is what it is (i took is directly to heart and i will be letting it consume me for the rest of my mortal life” on an audrey hootsoftly jellycat

Our first show of the year is on the 29th March at The Peer Hat in Manchester.

Joining us on this show is co-headliner, the ever influential @billie_skreamz_music and supported by the always amazing @wretchedfairy .

Follow the link below for tickets

www.skiddle.com/whats-on/Man...

First party games going on sale..

Meanwhile, there's me struggling to put words together in a meaningful way, resulting in making the situations worse XD

Yeah, it's hard to see folk still using the other site as anything but complicit at this point.. I won't be following them or engaging sadly on this basis I don't think.

Quote posting both as a signal boost, and also a bit of self motivation to try to be more social and outgoing.

Can confirm, amazing to slurp and kiss

Willing the clock forwards towards 4:30pm Thursday so I can have a long weekend.

Well sure, but it was still fantastic.. Not to mention the cuddles and kisses <3

Thinking of last night~~

While Irl I agree entirely, some trans folks do hold the fantasy of having the choice removed, usually due to having some other hurdles they can't cross elsewhere in life.

Plus, as it's art, no one is being harmed and we can rely on what's depicted, which looks to be quite a happy exchange.

Just finished a "big deal" meeting at work, feeling drained but relieved it went well.

Presented a 36 page technical write up of the project I've been on the last 2yrs with all the lessons learned and a new process to cover all of it.

Now I'm taking half hour in the dog bed to decompress.

Woof.

Water weight is a term you'll come to hate..

Not just about what you drink either... Carbs hold a bunch of water, so if you binge, you not only have the calories, but in the short term (following day) you'll likely weigh more than expected due to the water retention!

Great going so far though!

Decided today to try proactively reaching out to a few folks I've not spoken to in a while, even if it's just to let them know I've thought about them recently.

Don't need, or even specifically want to kick off conversation, just want to bring a smile to folks faces with unexpected contact ^^

One way ticket to a migrane honestly..

That's fine, you just lay there while I take my frustrations out on you..

I'll leave the method to your imagination~

Just have that goal in mind while you're sweating away, and you'll get there I'm sure ^^

Also remember, exercise is all well and good, but sexercise is even more fun ;p

I'll see myself out..

Right at the start of lock down I weighed myself (peaked at 130kg) and thought "I'm either gonna sort this out, or I should give up.."

So I got it sorted out.. Took a couple years, but I can't tell you enough about what good losing 30kg does. Still more to go, but it's easier now than then.