Just want to dissociate until this passes...
I don't know how to deal with this type of grief..

Me: starts keeping a notebook to help work through my anxiety

Me a month later: I can't find my journal and now I am a n x i o u s

Also on that:
I know smh is shaking my head but it always felt more like 'something'

Suppose I should try to be active on here or smth