ghost

: in case anyone was wondering
——>ghostling is refusing to materialize, even a little.

we are 5 days overdue.

: i can’t think about whales.
you can’t be nine months pregnant + think about whales.

majestic, glorious, magical creatures?
sobbing.
yacht flipping anarchists?
sobbing.
stopped singing?
sobbing.
baby whales?
sobbing.
incredible lifespan?
sobbing.

: would join.

A domestic longhaired black cat with green eyes, Anathema, lays belly up on her back looking resignedly at the camera while her domestic shorthaired tabby sister with green eyes, Frances, full-body hugs her while looking off camera, atop a cream and red floral quilt.

: anathema (black) + frances (tabby) send all their best wishes to you on this auspicious day!

: can it be like a book share where everyone writes their name + the date they screamed into the void?
because i would also love a void to scream into.

: i do, in fact, still know all the lyrics to “we didn’t start the fire” by billy joel.

: yes!
i thought i did but i can’t find it so, yes, dm me!

my schedule is a little bonkers w/ this baby coming so soon but i would love to hear your voice + how you’re doing!

: but one of the safer places to have a baby, if you are in the u.s!
+ a robust lgbtqia+ community!

: i will say,
——>housing, food, + utilities are expensive.
it also succumbs to the whole on-the-fault-line-of-death so, not a great place for climate crisis survival unless you stay further east of the river.
also, increasing surveillance + ice w/ ineffective pushback from local politicians.

: portland is wonderful!
we’ve been here 10 years!
it is beautiful, has gorgeous food, a very decent arts + music scene, w/in driving to ocean/river/mountains, fairly good schools + quite good hospitals.

also, have friends in tacoma who absolutely love it + plan to stay forever.

: whatever it was,
i did not like it.
nope.
not at all.
would also like a speedy explanation, from anyone, of citywide explosion sounds/vibrations.

seems relevant + necessary w/ all the, you know, fascism.

: it shook our house in ne.
people are saying they heard it all over the city.
some folks have posted photos of white smoke somewhere around downtown?
[we think/what we can tell from the photos]
some people saying sw at ice but that is hearsay, at best.

it sounded like a bomb or building exploding.

: what a time to be extremely pregnant during ✨fascism✨ w/ the rage of a thousand suns + the mobility of a million year old sloth.

: EXACTLY.

: there’s so much room for activities when one isn’t stuck in my rib cage!!

: somersaults are cool + fun for merpeople!!!

: can someone please inform this baby that “frank breech” is not + should not be their name nor position.

: they are a good choice, for a lot of reasons.
unfortunately, for me, my ability to sleep was Not On Board so i am not sure i retained a single thing.

: two day weekend intensive childbirth education classes *sound* like a good idea.

: i just yawned so big that it gave me round ligament pain.

my yawns are too big.
they are too strong.
their buffness knows no bounds.

: YES.
HERE FOR IT.

: adam west + his wife were semi-regulars at my former restaurant + he Inexplicably Loved Me.
he would hold my hand in both of his to effusively tell me how wonderful the food, service, + i was.
he was also very funny but mostly just soso kind.

: ohdear.
i have eaten an entire chocolate orange.
that wasn’t orange.
it was mint.
+ it was good.
but now it is bad.

: i think the beauty of a french bob is that it is often very flattering for most people
[at least to me]
+ if you err on the side of a messier lob you look even more effortless + chic + french cool girl.

which is to say,
yes.
do it.
it can always grow back + hats exist if you immediately hate it!

: i can confirm that ass is haunted.

: he is the greatest gift i have ever (vicariously) received.

littlest sister gets so many brownie points.

A knit crimcram crime ram—ram wearing a black and white stripe shirt, red santa hat, smoking a felt cigarette—sits nonchalantly atop a record player, in front of a large print of batman.

: may we all be blessed by the crimcram crime ram who’s likeness now lives w/ us as a ghostling gift from littlest sister.

A knit crimcram crime ram—ram wearing a black and white stripe shirt, red santa hat, smoking a felt cigarette—sits nonchalantly atop a record player, in front of a large print of batman.

: thank you for this blessing.
please accept this small effigy in honor of the absolute legend.

[lovingly crafted by my littlest sister for our impending ghostling]

: a good + fun thing about pregnancy is that my fucks have never been lower.

: got to do my gestational diabetes test today +, as a treat, got both my covid + tdap boosters.

my whole body hurts + i feel awful but it’s worth it on so many levels for so many reasons.