Gleamy Dreams ~ ✨

Thing~

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I should uh

I should do something
There's apparently a reward of 15-25% in his specific state for turning in this type of fraud

He gets bored when the dopamine drops, leaves and comes back over and over because he's mentally ill and inconsistent with his addictions, but I lack the same addiction and can function on my own but he'll make me look like the fucking problem because he can't move on from his own brain chemistry.

Little playful touches and flirts telling him how smart I think he is and flattering his little ego by over complimenting the smallest bit of basic thinking so that he oversells himself as a genius to me and tries to act like he thought about anything at all.

It's adorable and I love it very much.

Being with a "smart" man who thinks he's got the ultimate social skill when I can collapse the floor beneath him and make it so none of those friends can actually ever help him all while I'm told to do small things like make him a grilled cheese sandwich or do his laundry.
He's so smart. Yes, he is.

Listening to and taking orders, being there to validate his little ego while he whimpers about how he's only ever been adequate in groups while I tell him I'm fat, I'm insane, I'm ignorant, I'm this or that and I follow his little commands and speak when I'm told to be spoken to.
I'll hide his mess!

In a dark way, it's hot to be the sociopath/narcissist's toy. Everyone else sees a beautiful, golden boy with ADHD energy and maybe a little awkward but ultimately relatable, and how unfortunate that I'm weighing him down with my neediness and demands for his directions/orders to destroy for him.

I wanna be awoken and broken by a Master that I address as such every morning and at night, directed in how I dress and act, acting at his coordination and direction behind the scenes as a tool for his leverage.

That's how most of my relationships have gone and it's fucking hot. I won't lie.

I don't want him to just hurt me, I want him to ruin my mind irreparably to where my perception of reality is irreversibly fucked and I'm left a chattering mess with brain damage.

I want to be hurt beyond every boundary; I want to be painted to be a villain and/or crazy idiot crying in a puddle.

My toxic trait is getting excited about the idea of falling for a golden retriever boyfriend who is secretly the evillest bastard alive.
Being with someone so kind and nice that I can tell them every secret, help them forge the blade and direct them on how to stab me with it.

Sacrificial.

Okay so, without using the excessive rope from the bikini top to make some sort of shibari harness on my midsection (I think I'd prefer to use my regular black rope?)
I actually kinda like how this looks on me even without the accessories.

I dunno, what do you think?
I'm blushinggg

Here's a still shot of the boy~

Call The Cops YCH!
Im now offering this silly meme as a YCH if any of you are interested <3

- £15 GBP Each / Any Species
- Text can be changed!
- Transparent, so they will make for great stickers!

Please message me on Discord 'Pegamutt' or here if you're interested, thankyouu!

My oc.
It's a watercolor art.
#mylittlepony #oc

Also, let's say that they take the State's laptop with them during their travels and log it into unsecured networks (for instance: hotel wifi) and don't have approved days off for travel?

They have a work from home contract that says they'll work from their apartment, but they go to cons instead?

Out of curiosity, exactly how serious is it to do non-employment activities while on State time?

Let's say a government worker who travels to conventions and has checks into his job to continue sleeping and scrolls social media reposting art/memes during work hours?

I lost my mother in 2022, I lost my first documented pregnancy in 2024, and I had a chemical in 2025.

I didn't want the first pregnancy, I felt trapped to where I was too scared to keep or see any proof, but I wanted the second one... It didn't last for the ultrasound so...

Tests are what I have.

A pain I was never prepared for as an adult?

What's yours?

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Felt I'd come here and ask, but @djmoontune.bsky.social is taking me to Paris during my trip over to him in June. He told me to look for some things to do while we're there!

Do any of you have any suggestions or advice for us to look into? ❤️
I grew up poor, never dreamed of traveling so I struggle.

Louder !

Here is Quartz, he is deaf. 🤍

This is his cat tree, he loves to come down and be petted. I tap on the tree to let him know when I enter his room.

For those waiting: The green Hyundai Accent has been fixed first!

The Smart car is still suspended, the clutch will be finished being installed soon though. The mechanic is ADHD and has a ton of projects.

I called the courthouse to ask a procedural question and explained kinda what's going on and they happily redirected me to the State Attorney's office, I left a message and they called me back.

They seemed overjoyed for there to be a crime before telling me to go to my local PD for the crime?

Hoping all is well for you ❤️

Bing and Cupid ❤️

You can now definitely tell that Cupid is not a black cat.

They rarely recommend pure vegetarian or vegan, they just would prefer people to move away from the red meat products and denser proteins like beef and pork, but still have animal products like milk and eggs. Light protein like chicken, but they prefer fish for the vitamins that they have.

Got called about the blood test results.

I am low on vitamin B12 and need an injection on top of the vitamin D supplements.

I'm being told to temporarily surrender any vegetarian/vegan diet and to eat meat and animal products.
My diet is primarily meat and fortified animal products.

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I'm starting to learn that if a guy makes me super happy, makes me giggle uncontrollably, and I feel like we have a unique energy compared to the room...
We don't have a special connection

We both have unmedicated ADHD and I should steal his Ritalin before it ends in therapy.

I'm going to give you my predictions for tomorrow's blood lab call after getting this prescription earlier...

High red blood platelets, elevated white blood cell count, low vitamin D (<20)
Normal TSH
High protein

We're back to where we were one year ago after... Everything.

I did ask about getting the injections anyways because I would like to be thinner but I would have to gain 83 pounds in order to be eligible.

We're trying something else to help stabilize my metabolism in general related to PCOS, so we have that going instead.

Funny overkill treatment is funny.