Trisk

Looking so good!

oh congrats grrrl! Injections have treated me well. They've been working much more effectively than the pills and without any side effects as far as I can tell.

Idk. I think a world where monsterfuckers who value consent, folks into weird and hard kinks that aren't for me, folks with identities and fursonas that I don't always understand, and the uncertainty and compassion that all requires, is vastly preferable to whatever the hell is going on right now.

Protection

A personal piece to explore the meaning of collaring.

If you take the eyes from the left drawing and the mouth from the right one, the expression is kind of odd and conflicted, because the mouth and jaw is totally relaxed but the eyes are alert and active, which isn't a common state. Usually the states of these two facial areas are closely linked.

Experiencing pleasure, by contrast, is a deeply interoceptive state, one in which you're with the feelings happening inside your body. You are inwardly, instead of outwardly, focused - and relaxed, half-lidded eyes are a way of showing this.

This is the same reason having the eyes even sliiiightly more open looks more desiring and wanting rather that satisfied. It shows the character is alert and outward-focused, in exteroception.

Showing teeth shows that the lips are still drawn back and the facial muscles are still active, not totally in a state of surrender. Your brain knows this subconsciously when it sees drawings, even if you're never thought about it.

why does the second mouth shape look more orgasmic/pleasured? the shape communicates that the muscles of the are totally relaxed. When the muscles around your mouth are relaxed and your jaw is open, that's a state of surrender, bliss, and probably submission. Teeth typically won't show.

there's lots of stuff about expressions in NSFW art that you probably understand on a subconscious level, but maybe you've never thought about consciously! take the difference in vibes between these two expressions. The one on the left is more wanting, the one on the right is more orgasmic.

The vibe is that America is bought and paid for by investors who demand a return, and the American consumer is a fat duck for them to devour for it. When the only way to retire is to be invested in the market, and people are hopeless about work and turning to financial gambling, things aren't right.

Why is the way for me to have any kind of bright future to align myself with the success of these companies? Especially since a lot of it is tech, if you're in an S&P 500 fund. For most of these companies, I don't want them to succeed. I'm more or less forced into aligning with the system.

The way to be responsibly prepare for the future is to invest and buy into these funds, and in doing so, increase the value of stocks of all the companies they're invested in, kinda making the rich richer, right?

I've thought about how much it sucks that it's widely accepted the only way to retire, or have a financial future in general, is to be invested in the market. On a personal level, it's the responsible thing to do, but maybe it wouldn't have to be if society were built different, better.

So if it's harder and it's rewarded less, businesses will evolve away from that toward what works best. At some point, providing "value" starts to become optional, and becomes an expense to cut. I think that's the result of the incentives, the natural course of an evolutionary process.

There's a point Hank has made elsewhere, which is that making a profit by providing value to people is a lot harder than making a profit by monopolistic practices, corruption, taking advantage of people, and the many other ways to do it. Maybe providing value is rewarded less, even.

Am I just cynical? Maybe, let me know y'all's thoughts.
I'm just very tired of everything. So very tired.

That's my relationship to business.
I think that true value is constantly eaten away by that which is easier to capitalize on. Real value is functioning and healthy ecosystems and natural spaces, human connection and community, individual wellbeing, but our economy is naturally at odds with these.

Congratulations, you got me to spend money or time on your thing by taking advantage of the evolutionary mismatch between my behavioral tendencies and my actual best interests, burdening my self-regulation enough that I don't have the energy to resist the parts of me you've trained.

The reality is that "I" may not value these things as much as I value rested attention and health and wellness and saving money, but I have had behaviors trained into me by the parts of my environment designed by these businesses that lead to me doing things I don't value, that profit businesses.

So when I find myself zoning out to random video content more, losing a battle with the impulse to buy stuff online without proper consideration, eating something addictive, and so on (substitute your own vices for yourself), it's not because I "value" any of that, it's not intentional.

I have gone through periods of time where I manage my attention and impulses really well, where I ate more nourishing foods and stayed offline more and spend less money and was less in my addictions, and felt that it was a better way to go through life. But most of the time, I can't keep it up.

If you're in business, you might use language like "providing value," but that's not really the game. You can't conflate spending money or attention on a thing with valuing it. The game is to change people's behavior so they spend money and attention on your product, but this isn't "valuing" it.

Have you heard of this recent lawsuit? It's hard to blame people for turning to semaglutide medications to lose weight when their bodies are being physically addicted to food. Just one example of many.

sfcityattorney.org/san-francisc...

Everything that can take advantage of you, will. Hidden and unexpected costs and fees everywhere. Companies will try to make you dependent on what they provide and then make the product worse and more expensive once you are (another reason not to use LLMs - this phase has yet to come for them)

I've said this before but being an American feels like being a lab rat in a sophisticated experiment with immense funding, the goal of which is to extract as much of your attention and money as possible.

@ginkgocrownarts the goal is to be as kindhearted and perverted as possible

If I could wave a magic wand, nobody would listen to their phone out loud on a train or play music on trails while hiking ever again. I've accepted that some things are not going to change. But when it comes to the environment I work in, I really do need accommodations for my attention to function.

It's 100% true that this has drained me financially. I once moved out of an apartment two or three months before my lease was over and paid double rent, costing myself some thousands of dollars, because of neighbors playing music under one of the apartments I lived in.

On the other hand, I don't have an issue with seeking out the peripheral noise I'm angry at to make sure it's gone away anymore. I used to, but if I have enough white noise and block out the peripheral noise well enough, it won't bother me when I can't make it out, even if I know it's still there.