🌈Jess (they/them)

The fic that inspired this was one I started for a digital zine, until the INTRODUCTORY CHAPTER wound up being a full 1700 words -- and when I say "introductory," I literally mean in took 1700 to literally establish the premise

TFW I have roughly 5,000 things I want to do SO FUCKING BADLY but instead of doing the 5,000 things I want to do SO FUCKING BADLY, I'm literally sitting here, watching Secret Sleepover Society, and obsessively thinking about the 5,000 things I want to do SO FUCKING BADLY

Doubled my T dosage. Still on a pretty micro-microdose, but if everything stays good with my blood work, I'll be up to a "typical" low dose in a few weeks 🤞

I just gotta get through this week and then I have a 9 day vacation...

The problem with me and writing fics is I'll have a pretty simple straightforward idea, and yet once I start writing it can wind up sustaining for 500 words or 10k words and I have no way of knowing until I'm in the thick of it

Ah, Jesus Christ, I never finished this digital painting.

Sigh. Throw it on the pile.

One of our internships sites is a library, and everything I'm here i remember how much I like libraries and how I should go more often, but I literally have hundreds of unread books at home, so like... what am I doing??

I'm stressed about my existing TBRs, all I need are new ones w/deadlines.

I recently regained access to Netflix and the workday is slow enough that I'm just Googling different iterations of "best shows to watch on Netflix" and screencapping titles that sound intriguing.

I can't even articulate what "kind" of show i like, so I can't ask for recs, it's all just vibes, lol

....*it's is a wooden trainer and a no contact class, but like... he still worries me, lol. No proprioception, my child. None.

They handed my son a sword, oh God. Ohhhh God, he has a sword.*

Sticker Mule is supporting ICE, even making and giving away pro ICE T-Shirts.

Why not get your stickers made by Anti-ICE Queer Crafters!

bsky.app/profile/kgar...

To be fair, I also haven't packed, but my outfits are planned, I have a checklist, and I have tomorrow off as a personal day, so I give myself a little slack.

Been telling my son to lay out his stuff for the convention since Monday, so of course we will be doing it together, tonight.

The level of hypervigilant panic even the most seemingly mundane work tasks send me spiraling into is ridiculous 🫠

:)

A digital painting done in purples and gold. A woman with long flowing hair, head tipped dramatically back, rests a heavily bejeweled hand on her chest. Three elaborate daggers are stabbed deeply into her throat. She bleeds a vivid purple from her wounds.

Likely the last digital thing I'll finish prior to Arisia:

Deeply resentful of having to leave my house this morning.

At least it's a four day weekend for me.

My son wants to make paper cranes to trade, which I think is an amazing idea and I hope he actually follows through with it.

They're having a Night Market at the convention I'm going to next week, meant for folks to trade trinkets or small handmade items, and I'd really love to do a few mini (3" x 3") canvases for it this week, but that's going to be wholly dependent on my energy levels at 3pm after working all day.

Digital painting of a woman bending forward and the waist and hugging her legs. Her legs are stylized into scissors with ornate handles extended up from her hips. She stands in front of two painting of long auburn braid, matching her own long auburn hair. She had no face, only a black void where her face should be. The painting is done entirely in shades of rose.

I finally finished something yesterday! First finished thing in 2026 but also the first finished thing* since, like, August:

*That I'm currently allowed to share

Now I can just enjoy with my anticipatory anxiety instead of my panicked anxiety.

Spent a week caught up in an obsessive doubt spiral about whether or not I ever booked my hotel for next weekend because I could not for the life of me find a confirmation email before finally getting an "Your Upcoming Stay" email from the hotel yesterday.

I'm looking forward to watching more of it!!

In a fun addendum to my late watch of "Heartstopper" I started yesterday, I walk into the school today to see the GSA is running a "Heartstopper" marathon next week.

Cheeeeeeeeks!!!

I'm never in the vanguard of pop culture consumption, but I wanted to make it a point to start consuming more new-to-me media in 2026 and just started watching "Heartstopper" today and GOOOOD I just want to pinch everyone's checks

FAIR. Absolutely wouldn't be mad about that, either.

I'm still holding out hope for a Yajima sequel.

Did not get a Bingo in 2025, let's see what happens this year:

Two weeks later, and I'm still playing the same games of "HRT or cold?" though after two weeks and absolutely no additional/worsening symptoms, I'm super hopeful its the HRT.

Also, will the symbolism of a fresh start help me become more active on here like I keep saying I will?

We can hope.