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secretly resent me for not being cheerful enough. None of us know each other in real life, so there is no chance of anyone feeling responsible for me or my emotions, and that frees me from the guilt I would have felt expressing myself honestly. So, thanks for the space I need to vent.
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A big part of why nobody in my real life knows how bad my mental health is, is because I don't want to be a burden on anyone. An unexpected effect of posting my feelings on the internet is that people can choose to read what I write, or not. Nobody is going to feel obligated to listen, or
Fortunately no, but I did once meet a three year old who was crazy about carrot juice and literally turned orange, so I know it can happen lol!
I'll check these out! I recently found a Youtuber named Garron who is absolutely hilarious. I also listen to a lot of Conan O'Brien. Nobody can make me laugh like that man does.
That's very kind of you, thanks :)
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waiting to explode. I'm kind of scared about how it is going to be unleashed. I'm hoping to release it a bit at a time so that I don't wind up having a total mental breakdown.
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also nearly had a nightmare last night for the first time since I was a little kid. I have anxiety dreams all the time, but this time I felt the fear rising up before my brain clamped down on it hard. All my emotions, both good and bad, are like a pressure cooker
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My emotions have been under lockdown for literal decades. All I have been capable of feeling is anxiety and anger. My emotions have been starting to come to the surface more. I've been laughing a lot more and a lot easier recently, but I
I proclaim this the summer of George!
I hope I can reconnect with her one day, but it is going to take a long time for me to even want to attempt it. I don't think that she will ever meet my criteria for reconciliation though, which is having some accountability. I'm glad you at least got some final time with your mom.
Thank you so much for your support, and I'll check out Scott Kiloby.
Thank you so much. I appreciate your thoughtful words.
Honestly it did help. There is still a long way to go, but it at least let me express a lot of things that I haven't been able to express before. Just the fact that it is out there in the world means that at least my experiences won't die with me.
Well I no longer have a kitty, but I'm house sitting at the moment so I've got a loaner lol.
Thanks, I'll check that out.
The state of the world is horrific. I always knew there were evil people out there, we get warned about it starting from early childhood, but until the last few years I honestly didn't know that the rot ran this deep. It makes you want to throw in the towel.
The last few months have been daily intense stress and grief. As time passes it is lessening. I'm still going to be feeling it a lot going forward, but I'm doing better than before. I'm at least having days here and there where I'm okay. To preserve that I won't turn on the news today either.
😂😂😂 Omg...
Stay safe man. The world is going crazy.
Personal details also need to be kept private. No locations, no real names. I don't want to get doxxed, or anyone in my life to get doxxed either.
Nice to meet you too.
Melissa is fine. In the interest of full disclosure, it is a pen name. My real name won't be revealed publicly to retain privacy, especially for my sister, who shares my history and I'm sure doesn't want my story to be linked back to her.
Same!!
It's true, I'm not wholly against it (I used it to create the cover of my book) but the level of realism coupled with a lack of critical thinking feels like dangerous waters. I think it has a place in our world but there are going to be issues as well.
Team coffee for sure. Mostly for the energy boost. I've disliked tea for a long time but discovered recently that it is probably because of low quality product I have been consuming and also partly because I can taste the bag. When I switched to high quality loose leaf tea it was a game changer.
A million times this.
AI is terrifying. It is getting really difficult at this point to tell what is real and what is not.
I've actually done this! And still do when it really gets bad. Unfortunately, the munchies are real man, and I already have a difficult time keeping my weight down so I have to keep it to emergencies only. I one time ate an entire bag of raw carrots lol.
Some days I wish I had valium.
Maybe time for some Calvin and Hobbes...
