Idgie Heather Ljunggren

Waits for Me

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This account is now 80 % whining, 10 % art and 10% other things...

0 % comedy.

I was planning to get my ass to some open mic clubs this month, but still don't really have the energy.

At least Im going to the gym again today. If I manage to buy a padlock.

Collage made of several small paper pieces on a white sheet if paper. Looks like a dying flower in shades of grey.

Collage made of several small paper pieces on a white sheet if paper. Looks like a dying flower in shades of grey to the right and a simial smaller one in pink.

Se former description. Here with outlines filled in with ink.

Development

Large collage in progress.

Bike track in muddy grass field, short yellowish grass. Bare trees and scrubs in the distance.

Spring will come.

Tack 😍
Ja, den sista blev någon firm av fågel. Planerar sällan innan, motivet får växa fram.

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Wow. Thats horrible.

We don't really use gas in Sweden, but they're ekectricity bills can be quite high sometimes, depending on the current price.

For me, rent and my studentloan is the biggest expense. And lots of small bills. 😅

My Chiffonjé in dark wood standing against a wall with its desk folded out. My collage project seen on the desk. My shadow is cast on a white door next to a bookshelf.

Work in progress collage. Looks like a dead flower or an upside down tree.

Work in progress.

Also, my favorite piece of furniture: my Chiffonjé.

I try to be smart about it. I've never had much money so I know how to cook cheaper food, I don't consume much things in general etc.

But it drains a lot of energy to constantly have to think of it.

I know im privileged in so many ways, many people have it so much worse...

Having much less money now than when I shared rent and other costs with my partner, has affected me alot.

First I was just so struck by grief, being alone etc. Now thoughts of "will I have enough money this month" occupies too much space in my mind.

It makes me tierd, less happy and anxious.

I love my kid so much!
I asked him with movie he wanted to see. (He's turning 14 this yr)
He answered: "I want to see something like those Legally Blonde movies".

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Collage of monstercreature eith dark paper pieces

Bird collage made of blue paper clippings.

One large snd three small trees with vriwn trunks and pastell coloured leaves made of paper pieces

Birdlike collage creature. Orange, blue and black.

Thinking of maybe turning some of these collages into prints.

Anyone interested? 😊

Maybe a more textured sort of paper would be cool for some, and a more glossy for others.

Wich one's your favorite?

#collage #art #intuitiveart

White wine, belly full of homemade Ramen soup and some peace and quiet.

Gonna see a movie with kiddo later but for now I'm just gonna enjoy an episode of my favourite horror podcast and my glass of wine.

That's an amazing book! 😍

I'd like to feel the spark again
Of joy without a reason
To wake up with no trace of pain
No matter changing seasons

To feel that nobody can take
That spark of joy away
To just feel pleased for the sake
Of living every day.

I will again, some day, I'm sure
But there's no fast paced cure.

Its a shame im not much of a smoker. I wonder what the Snus brand of choice is thats equivalent to Gula blend.

Premade, store bought meatballs, not homemade.
And in my case, veggie meatballs. 😉

Im slowly transforming in to what we in sweden call a "Gula blend morsa". To trl, put a cheap brand of cigarette together with a slang term for mum.

Its a single mom who's constantly tierd and who treats herself to a glass of cheap red while haphazardly making meatballs and macaroni for dinner.

I think I need to get back into reading more horror again. I think I've overdosed lighthearted romantic novels.

Its like drinking a whole bottle of wine by yourself, eventually you get an hangover when facing reality. 😅

Its better to have some lovehandles than being obsessed with how to tone your muscles. Some gymdudes look dead in the eyes. 😅

I'm usually not a big fan of gyms either, but im gonna try to find a routine that works this time. Really need exercise for building strength and for my mental health. 😅

😯wow!
Im impressed but it feels quite stressful to have gym taking up the whole livingroom. 😅

I live quite near and the gym is also near the trainstation where I commute every day, so my plan is to get some exercise in after work.

I did it! 😍
Worked out for 40 minutes and it was actually quite fun. Felt reasonably comfortable and I didn't felt that awkward.

Im going to the gym today for the first time in ages. Feel quite nervous about it. It's not so much the gym as it being a new place and I tend to get nervous about such silly things.

Do they have lockers? Do I need to bring my own padlock? Will I understand how to use the machines? 😂

Wish me luck!

Creature made up of dark paper clippings on a white background.

Maybe one of my favorite collages so far.

I call it "The monster is I"

Its in the middle of a large sheet of paper so I might do a few more creatures around it. Or I just leave it like it is.

This weekend turned out good.

Yesterday I took my ass out of the coach and went to see some local bands playing at a small one night festival in town. It was really fun, even if I felt a bit awkward first, being there by myself.

After doing that my mood lifted and today's been a good one too.

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Maybe you'reright.
It feels quite lonley though. I do have a few close friends who are always there for me. But my social life in general has shifted.

I'm working today.
Holding a crafting activity with kids at the library. We're going to fold paper Minecraft blocks and creatures.

Hopefully my face can manage to look a bit happier before the activity starts at 11. 😂

Today was also the day I realized that most of our mutual friends, where always just his friends who didn't really like me that much...

Only one of them has reached out to me after the breakup. The rest just jumped right in on telling him how cute he is with his new grlfriend....