SillyPau

I promise I’ll be fine,, being depressed doesn’t mean the video won’t be finished before March ends, or that I won’t stream Tomodachi Life in April and debut the cool new VTuber model and have lots of fun.

I’m just… getting out of bed a little later than usual ehehe

people get really scared when I’m depressed, and I feel really really bad about that,, the people who love me have seen me attempting to take my life and end up hospitalized,, so now any tiny sign makes them really worried. so sometimes I feel like I have to pretend everything is fine ; v ;

please bear with me,
i'm trying my best ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

This is the first time i've been depressed while having an audience and loved ones around me who’ve seen my growth… from a girl who could barely go outside or speak, to someone who’s mostly happy and functional now.

so lately I keep worrying that I’m betraying everyone just by struggling… ehehe

woof :3

aw, i'm so glad Pau Plushie is able to spark so much joy ehehe ^w^ this is so cute, thank you!

Some transgender people see only darkness in front and behind them.

The current climate is especially accelerating this.

Transgender people just want to love the people they love and live their lives as themselves.
Let's all join hands and change the world🫶🌏🫶

there's a constant background radiation of ableism on the internet these days that makes it very not fun to use. never know when i'm gonna stumble across someone casually being incredibly cruel about autistic people, either implicitly or explicitly

as much as I want to love Pokopia, I’ve found that being super depressed it kind of feels like someone just told me to clean my messy room… and I’m just sitting there like “yeah… I know I should… I really want to… but the idea of starting just makes me want to lie down instead.” ehehe…

videogaems i like

my9games.com

im silly

Serebii Update: Official artwork of Pombon

Details @ serebii.net

Happy Pokémon Day!! ᐠ( ᐛ )ᐟ
Pokémon has been part of my life ever since I was a little fish, so I've collected a few plushies along the way ^^

munna!!! ^w^
I love this little ball of dreams

I named my Aftonsparv "Blip Blorp Bloop Borb"
but I just call him Bloop

I have even more emotional support plushies now ^^

Happy Birthday @heyimheroic.bsky.social ᐠ( ᐛ )ᐟ🎉

Alice and Pau (@sillypau.bsky.app) wearing paper Burger King crowns in a Burger King restaurant.

i'm at Burger King with my Burger Queen,
can i get a large fry?
she's vegan please, so don't put no cheese,
with some honey mustard on the side

Congrats!!! 💕

i look like a bug you can squish

noooo... i'm not ready for it to start getting warm again :/ it feels like winter just got started!

I’m so excited!! ^w^
I’ve got two new videos on the way (just getting started,, gimme a tiny bit!!).

I’m also plotting to stream *professionally* sometime!! :3

I’m gonna make something really special,, I can feel it!! ^w^

big confidence boost!! >:3

look at this awesome toucan

thank you so so much I love this dearly 💕💕

Sillypau drawing of her holding her fave pikmin creature Bulborb along with mini drawings around her like the trans flag, a mini eepy sleepy pau, bandaids, Sayori from DDLC and a pokeball!

first post on bsky!!!

for the adorbs @sillypau.bsky.social while i wait for my pau plushie 🥺

(also very very very very evyer veryvery late happy birthday Pau!!!🧡💚)

Alice and I just watched Markiplier’s Iron Lung movie!!
It good c:

-pau & @heyimheroic.bsky.social

Pau Birthday!!