I guarantee people. The day I succeed at my math, I'll want nothing to do with western infosec (or anything adjacent). Like I dont see what is happening. Do people really think I'm a fucking idiot? Go to hell fucking losers. Yea. I destroy america and nato and all you fucking nazi losers.
If my situation doesn't change eventually I will be homeless. And I'm telling you, I will just hang myself when that day comes. But that seems to be the exact outcome people have been hoping for. Shadow banned everywhere. Years of complete silence, no matter what I share online.
Hope my stalker is dead.
Depression. Deep depression. I dont even think anyone has read my blogs on secure channel. I dont even think anyone is actually interested in this math. It's like the words of my stalker have become reality and I have become inconsequential. I hate that the most of all.
I AM BEAR. DESTROYER OF MICROSOFT.
Finally.. I see the pattern... I should be good to fix that find_common_coefficient() function in my latest PoC now.. might take a break from work tomorrow though. Struggling with dark thoughts again. People have no idea how difficult life has gotten. Haunted by memories.
If anyone with some industry connections wants to start a company or something, let me know. It doesn't look like I'm ever going to find actual employment.
Nothing has been the same since. And now there is nothing. I'm sure microsoft has gone above and beyond to smear me. Bunch of cowards. Dont hire people on a visa if you're going to treat them like disposable trash.
Wish I had never joined microsoft. The mental damage of being threatened with a gun by strangers, getting fired immediately after, having to leave all the friends behind that I had known for years, due to losing my work visa. My former manager getting fired for defending me.
I dont know... depression.. turning 36. My life is at rock bottom. No way out. I think the worst part is, the disappointment everyone has.. I'm probably nearly there with my math now, but what if I'm not? What else can I do with my l ife anymore?
*sigh* born too gay and weird for this world.
Uploaded NFS_WIP2 on github.com/BigPolarBear...
see readme.
To do: in find_common_coefficient(), there exists a formula to find good values for that k variable. But it is a little complicated and I'm still working on the details. Wont be fast until I address it.
Spread the word, like an subscribe, sandboxescaper is coming back to drop 0days on microsoft. www.patreon.com/posts/next-b...
Going to do a little bit more math today.. once I get bored of that I'll show you exactly what else I found in secure channel. We're talking about window's TLS implementation in case people do not understand the gravity of the situation.
Ok fine. I will never understand this industry's willingness to endure disaster rather than showing some basic respect. Disaster it is then. I don't bluff about things I find.
Refering to my math work, not secure channel.
Hmm. Tomorrow I'm just going to upload a PoC, that's basically going to be the algorithm in its final form minus one function that I'm still working on (it's a little complicated). I'll figure that last part out shortly, just want to move on this and begin wrapping up my work now
Fine. I will drop secure channel exploit. I am beyond desperation at this point. I cannot find a job. I cannot find buyers for my work. I am stuck. Hence, hellfire it is. Enjoy the chaos.
It has gotten really silent. There is no way this isn't on purpose. I'm not an idiot. The absence of signals, in itself is a signal too. Morrons.
These infosec bros piss me off. Fucking morrons. Same b*tches who were crying when I was dropping 0days years ago.
Somewhere out there is some threat intel tech bro, with half the talent I got, telling people not to engage with anything I share online. I'm not going to stop what I'm doing bc of some infosec losers. If I cant find employment I'm going to keep sharing my work online, it's the only option I have.
Like literally western intel is a bunch of tech bro nazi losers who think they are smarter and better then me. They are not. They are tiny weaklings who would piss themselves if they ever met me irl. Hope they see this. Losers.
People are idiots if they think I'm going to do anything else but drop my work online. I'm sure western intel would love for me to sell to non-nato countries so they can map out those networks. I know the principles of SIGINT and I know I can't protect myself while living in the EU, dumbasses.
THE SILENCE IS DEAFENING.
I guess I could keep blogging, hope for a job offer abroad eventually.. maybe I just need to drop bugs in secure channel for a while.
Like really, what am I supposed to do, just kill myself then? I have spent 2 years in near complete social isolation. Unable to make money. Unable to find any opportunities. The years flying by. Turning 36 in a few days. Dont have a pension saved up. Nothing. Absolute despair and agony.
2 years of unemployment. Just stuck in my life. I have no way out except go kill myself or something. It feels like the years before WWII when they banned undesirables from all aspects of life. How else can I explain this? I have so many CVEs, I was better then everyone else. Just nothing.
Once you reach a certain number of CVEs and also start trying to break factorization, you become invisible and everyone pretends you don't exist. Sad but true.
www.linkedin.com/in/thomas-va... made a new linkedin account also. Lets see how quickly I get banned I guess. Sadly have to use my legal name on linkedin and life has been a shitshow so I havnt changed my legal name yet.
I'm guessing all my social have been shadow banned or something. Whats the point. The only way out of this is somehow set a factorization record and spam it all over the internet like a complete lunatic. Cant get a job. Cant get noticed. Just stuck in life, broke, hopeless. Fuck this.
