Now take care of yourself too. All that stress, all those ups and downs, are hard on the mind and body. Take time off if you can. Take some vitamins, do soothing and comforting things.
For me, it made a difference to grief to know that I'd done everything I could. That I'd rushed to vet, said yes to tests.
The financial stress was way smaller than the guilt I felt wishing I'd done more and faster.
So hope is the best, and knowing you did your best is the least-worst.
Do not eat the rich. It's inefficient and most of them are too fatty.
Compost the rich to grow high-value crops instead.
