Lightlychaotic

I love her so much! 🥰

1. Spend the weekend together
2. Say I love you
3. Buy a strap together
4. Make things official

Fucking lesbians

So gay

Oh my gay little heart

Getting all potted up on the weeds (that's a really old reference, maybe Colbert?)

Happy second Pride month, queers!

Prom boobies!

It's not my dirty mirror 😂

This period of yearning is shut down. I can't do it anymore. My heart is not strong enough for this.

I have tried so hard to keep perspective on reality and have managed to be wrong every single time, so I'm giving up.

And while civilization is collapsing, I'm in my lover girl phase, romantically lonely, even though I know I'm a fucking catch and a half. It just sucks.

I know people have things worse than I do. I just need to complain somewhere 😂😭😂

Oh I'm constantly thinking about both. And the fact that my dad died at the beginning of March. And everyone who's acted like they're interested in me that has just wanted to be friends and that my work crush was mean when I confessed my feelings. And and and...

The person doing the yearning (me) thinks it's too much to be yearning for something they can't have and also be horny (because I can't have that either)

Do not start nothing with me if you are not dead ass serious about seeing it through.

I can handle incompatibility or just not being liked but I cannot stand feeling like I’ve been or am being played with. That’s a quick way to piss me off.

Not to be too horny on main, but isn't just yearning enough? 😂😭

That's enough yearning for now (don't worry, I'll never be done)

Yeah, I'm not looking forward to watching them date other people, but I know I need to get there. But they're so gentle with my feelings and walking through this whole process with me 😭

How do you turn a romantic crush into a friend crush? How do you stop catching feelings for someone who is basically everything you want and need in a partner, but "very monogamous" 😭

Whatever kind of relationship we're going to have, this is the beginning of an epic story. 💜

I'm just having sad girl hours because as much as I like to be independent, I'm lonely as fuck. I miss romance and I miss sex and I miss being wanted. However, even in Portland, finding a queer Polyam woman who I find attractive and also wants me is basically impossible.

I mean, friends are great too! I just would also like a hot gf.

It's true, but I also want a really hot girlfriend

Just me breaking my own heart as usual 😂 not really, I'm going to stop it early this time. But at least I'm pretty

Merlin app, these are PNW birds

It's uh, not a pretty song. They just screech/scream

I've somehow managed to make it to a point in life where hot people see me and go "FRIEND!"

And well, that's weird and I don't know what to do with it 😂✨

But tonight, we dance.
Going to see Wreckno and Star Monster at the Den! ✨

This week was weird. Very few vendors actually called for payments and I think I got maybe 2 deliveries.
Fingers crossed that I can take most of next week off to grieve.

I'll borrow a truck and drag that thing across the graveyard until they put the right name on it