Eva Naprika

a dream with lapses in memory, time and space.

a stashed gelato from last autumn

There is no patience for my softness, my wounds, my unraveling. There was no protection for me, a Black girl

This world isn't mine

I'm sorry you feel this way too

That video from the Nancy Guthrie home is actually the most frightening thing you could ever see on door cam footage. Can't get it out of my head now.
Her family must be so worried

Sometimes it feels like this isn't my world but yet, i'm stuck here

Oh God

Yeh

Not great, everything falling down around me. Some days better than others

Purple corcuses blooming in a patch of grass

Regardless of everything, it comes right back.

#spring #lifecycle

Oh god

A watercolour sketchbook and book about printing techniques

Haven’t finished with this watercolour yet so i don't know why I started peeling off the border tape.

#portraiture #watercolours #illustration

Made a chunky soup this week and heated up some today with some leeks.
I put in sweetcorn and water chestnuts too for the crunchy texture.
When the soup boiled, I turned off the heat and put in some noodles. Not too much cos dumplings are in there, too.

Smells like dinner is ready.

Thankful for the ppl in my life that look out for me and keep me going.

Walked to the pool and back today. All I have to do 2mo is get myself to the art session. Beautiful humans and lots of art experimenting. things i always look forward to. Will come straight home after.

Gonna skip the last swim class 2mo. Can't face three hours stuck in traffic. It's n9t always as bad as that, but i always get stressed out on the journey back. it gets so busy.. my nervous system isn't robust enough. And the traffic wastes my day off.
Fully adjusted to the new pool now

Apart from the strong hugs and being held by my friends, I am finding co regulation helpful too. Not sure if it's called that. Deep breaths and exhaling together is so healing. I'm see this is why we can also heal in community

Looking forward to reading the outcomes.
I worked with Bethan the year before last, and we reviewed your research on harms from services. I still remember the content and how spot on you were giving voice to things unsaid but really needed a voice.

Difficult day with some good things

😮😮‍💨

#Goodthings

- Therapeutic chat with Suicide and co this morning
-Encouraging chat and action plan with my mentor
-slept the entire afternoon
- Good evening swim
-researcher wants to use my artwork to accompany blog post
-adding water chestnuts to my soup for interesting texture and crunch

Hey, good to see you. I am in and out of this space at present. But I hope you're doing ok. I've missed your spotlights and research

It is helpful that I reset my swimming bag as soon as possible after getting home. Just so that I can keep on top of damp items and restock my bag ready to go for next time.

Time for some chicken soup, and make some progress on a watercolour painting.

Helpful guide around coping with the loss of a loved one.

www.helpguide.org/mental-healt...

Just eaten a sandwich and some of the apple crumble i made yesterday. Going for an evening swim. When I return, I'll reheat some of that pot of chicken soup. Hopefully there aren't too many screaming, noisy kids at the pool this evening

Phonecall first thing this morning. I cried so much, ached and said what I wanted to say about D. And received support. Noon I had a mentoring appt that I couldn't get into initially and freaked out. When I got in the meeting she recognised I'm showing signs of trauma. I slept the entire afternoon

Watercolours semi abstract yellow and pink hues

Experiencing

Lived experience

#watercolours #abstract #painting

Sounds like this month is going to be hard. I hope you have access to lots of hugs, kind words or whatever you need to help you get through

I've also got a collection of sea shells and stones. I paint the stones sometimes

Thank you

Beaded plant with cowrie shell flower

There's no way this plant will be killed off

#beadedplant #crafting #craftysaturday