Thank you bebe π hoping 12.5 is gonna be a good year
Thank you bebe π hoping 12.5 is gonna be a good year
2025 recapped
Every year, millions of Americans are born without the Knowing When Youβre Standing Right in the Fucking Middle of the Grocery Store Aisle gene. Incurable, unfortunately
I have a rare condition called a fucked up body
Also have a great time! It looks lovely there.
Have you listened to You're Dead to Me? It's my favorite feel-good history podcast...it's like a game show where a historian explains something to a comedian and then there's a quiz. If you like Greek/Roman stuff, Natalie Haynes Stands Up for Classics is also fun!
Sadly the only dr who has not been a total dick through this process has said she doesn't need to see me any more so now it's just asshole central all the time. Sigh.
I understand Dr's deal w a lot of people who claim to do "research" and then cite some wellness influencer bs. But like...I've spent literally hundreds of hours reading journal articles and case studies and one dr is like "you're so informed it's awesome!" And the other is like "u r clearly a moron"
The 2 specialists for my autoimmune issues are having a territorial pissing match...so I have to go get a blood test to prove my thyroid levels are low, even tho my resting heart rate is currently 45, I keep crying for no reason and my hair is falling out in clumps π« so that's how my day is going.
A photo of a wild rabbit on a lawn
Yard bun!
No look me
I SAID βNO LOOK MEβ
I asked themb NOT TO LOOK ME
AND YET THEY LOOK ME
Please spare a second for this tiny blue tit βpuppyβ floofster in my spare folksβ garden who is INCANDESCENTLY FUCKINβ FEWMINβ
π rip iced coffee
The worst! I've had the occasional gallbladder grumbles for ages, but nothing like last night. I got a referral to talk to a surgeon (also iv pain and nausea meds so that helped!)
I did get to be a lab rat this morning for student doctors to practice finding gallstones on ultrasound. It was equal parts mortifying and kinda cute how pleased they looked when they found one, like a really gross Easter egg hunt.
Spent last night at the ER bc my gallbladder is full of gravel. It would be great if my body could just function for a few months without fucking something up.
I just saw a firefly π weird little sparkle butt creatures
I'm reading What My Bones Know, Stephanie Foo's biography about healing from complex trauma and it's both suuuuper sad and incredibly comforting bc cptsd has a way of making you feel like you're uniquely broken and it's nice to know other people have been there, and have gotten better.
Just did my first non-beginner Pilates reformer class and didn't embarrass myself. Signed up for another one on Thursday.
If you won't notice, how can I show you
youtu.be/7WgyieNTv6c?...
A water, an iced latte and a dreamsicle smoothie
Hangover cure
The tiki drinks menu at Lulu Bar
Selfie of me, wearing purple glasses and a blouse with tiny green flowers
My friend, sitting at a table with an open cocktail menu
Orchid Mantis from Zoologist perfumes.
This morning we went to Etiket for perfume shopping and now at Lulu Bar for lunch
Little Toronto long weekend w my oldest pal...did Stormcrow Manor and Church Street bar hopping last night
taking my Work Brain out my skull and swapping it with my (much smaller) Night Brain from the fridge
Shot of the ocean itβs a head and shoulders above the water in the foreground and the fin of a diving whale in the distance.
thatβs one long mermaid
This song is on the 4AD collective album This Mortal Coil, but it's Cocteau Twins performing it. Apparently David Lynch loved it but couldn't afford the licensing for Blue Velvet, so he got Julee Cruise to write something "similar" and that was Mysteries of Love.
I love when a cover song just absolutely kills the original. The Tim Buckley original is a pretty folk song, but Elizabeth Fraser made it perfect youtu.be/6GFteqnmoxg?...
At the train station a full hour early bc....reasons. (the reasons are anxiety and needing coffee)
πππ I love the binaural beats! It turns off the brain noise
The day before going on vacation and the day of coming back from vacation are basically tied for the worst kind of work day. Only taking 3 days off and it's not long enough to be generating this much extra work.
change of plans. feeling like I'm just gonna come to terms with my rusty cage