I struggle a little to talk with taciturn people
I mean, I guess it makes sense, given the meaning of the word
It just sucks trying to strike up a conversation and you only get singular words as replies
Feeling strangely sad with no apparent cause
Like if all my friendships are fake
I'm just thinking to myself, now you know why I'm so broken
I love my family, but now that I'm with Logan full-time, I dislike the way they are sometimes even more
Especially if it regards him
A1 German exam coming up? "He'll never pass"
"Logan got a 92% on the practice exam" *left on read*
I sometimes sit at the dining table with Logan when they argue and
Sorry I'm getting back so late
I can tell you in DMs, but it might make me seem like an asshole
Some people are full of shit
I appreciate it
I don't feel like I've done anything good for Feather ever since he's come here
I don't remember the last time I've actually helped someone
I can't do shit about Skippy's situation, Xy probably hates me due to my nature, I couldn't do anything to cheer Rayzer up, I have no idea what to say to Rox
Why can't I make anyone happy
I try to ignore my insecurities until I forget about them, but it's hard this time when they just keep popping back into my mind
I'm sorry
I hope I'll get over the guilt
I've been wanting to cry for more than 24 hours now
I shouldn't rely on others to wake me up anymore
This isn't sass, this is genuine advice towards myself
Read up a little bit on it and now I feel more assured 💛
Split between "Should this once-in-a-lifetime event be more grand?" and "I'm glad if it's small and easy"
...That being said, I can't deny a little bit of nervousness at the thought of basically organizing a party for 32 people
Maybe it's good the only fixed thing on the agenda is a restaurant visit...?
Getting married is strange
Most people consider it the most important day of their life, and so do I, but I'm not super duper thrilled about it like it's some high-class event, if that makes sense
Rather, I'm just happy I can finally be with him in peace and quiet forever
Dreamed about having to afford an apartment and a car and ugh
Sometimes I think I should work 39 hours instead of 34, but even 34 already leaves me so drained sometimes
I read it as if you were saying, "I hope I won't be too much"
Oh wait maybe I read your response wrong lmao
Shh
I just realized how much my life will change
This isn't a negative vent, it simply hit me just now, that's all
I don't like when D responds to my vents, or at least I didn't like in this case
It felt like it completely missed its mark
I accidentally donated $30 too much to someone lmao
Not gonna take it back
Maybe it's because I've only ever seen dysfunctional relationships in my family, but it's incredible to me how strong mine and Feather's love for each other still is
I was just overwhelmed helping people deal with heavy things...
I need help
Is it wrong to feel like Matty should be held more accountable? I feel like many times with his freakouts, it just results in people telling him what a good person he is
I'm no psychologist, but I'm scared it rewards attention-grabbing behavior
It seems I'm still very adamant about not joining servers when it feels like I self-invited
