kdE
@appisatya
documenting my mental health journey // depression • anxiety • adhd • suicidal ❌ self harm behavior ❌ porn/phone addiction • insomnia • gender/sexuality issues // 27 • unemployed ❌ weeb • i like stories, art, music & games • vegetarian • fake dev
kdE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
i want a better, good job
saem. are you using firefox?
chat, how to interact with kids? I'm at my cousin's & I've never been more awkward than rn with my niece & nephew.
breaking balls
but consult doctor - even if an underground doctor. someone with a medical degree.
like planet of the apes
i had a nightmare straight out if a horror movie yesterday, & ngl the premise was interesting. i didn't want to wake up.
🎶Nobody knows, the troubles I've seen~ Nobody knows, my sorrow~~🎶
youtu.be/EmIeYWg3BJE
i have alarms for all my medication. it helps me
maybe look for clubs & meetups for your hobbies & make friends there?
life is a seashore simulator, with waves of challenges one after another. but fun little things like good food, pretty shells help.
emergency feel-good snacks time. hope you feel better soon.
Grayscale cartoon art of a crow in a forest underneath a strange sky split into large eyes, with the caption - "oh FUCK" says the crowlet, as endless eyes fill the skies.
Under observation.
toppings?
nice colors
colored sketch of Soul Calibur's Talim in an action pose
Experimenting a bit more with coloring, have the finished Talim piece #soulcalibur
just ate, and im stuffed, but i want some chocolate
ima try learning aws & deploy a website tomorrow or tonight.
what even is normal honestly? the concept still eludes me tbh. i can only hope i'm acting normal well enough. honestly i have no clue.
...wait that's just a snapchat filter
actually a cool AR app idea.
#dev
can do in godot maybe even. identify target → check for pose change → sfx
b-but what about your anilist to-watch backlog?
things are looking better. I'm trying for other jobs in the meanwhile too. I gave a few interviews but didn't do well in them. gonna study now. i also want to draw & stuff and maybe make a few fan games. but haven't had much time yet between deadman shift(very meh, atleast there's no boss) & moving.
UPDATE!
Not suicidal anymore. Not that much self harm anymore.
Also got a job. It's a very shitty job, but its better than nothing! Also I won't have a job gap anymore. And some experience is better than no experience ig.
A cartoon of a woman looking at her computer monitor. The title of the cartoon is "Peak Operational Efficiency." Quote bubbles coming out of the monitor suggest numerous emails with contradictory information and instructions. "You're fired!" "NO - WAIT! Never mind!" "Back to work!" "Send your manager FIVE accomplishments or you're fired!" "No don't!" "Send five or you're fired!" There's an additional chat bubble coming from the monitor with an apparent headline that reads, "Thousands of fired federal workers called back to work." Finally, there is a cell phone on the desk, and the caller is asking, "Hey...do you still have a job?
idk. just feels like it. chest pressed. ribcage hurting. breathless.
maybe because i sleep on my belly? idk
being choked, yes.
charger? no.